To be kicked when you're down
Wow, these last few days have been so long! Sunday night sucked so bad! Johan and I got in this huge fight. It seemed like he really didn't care. I really need him right now and it seems to me that all he cares about is his job. He knows I'm going through a rough timem right now but he's not there for me. Friday night I found out what was wrong with Chopper and I was crying, and all he could do was put his hand on my shoulder and say "I'm sorry" while he stared at the wall. I was so angry! Even Josh (yeah Josh...of all people) put his arm around me and gave me a hug and was there for me. Johan couldn't even hug me. Josh, Vikki, and Maria were the ones trying to cheer me up. I was so upset. It really hurt to know that the second time I really needed Johan to be there for me for something big he basically walked out on me. Right now I'm going through a lot of stuff and when I went to go and pick him up Sunday night, he decided he was going to work late knowing I couldn't stay much longer and I needed him there. I was so mad! He knows that when he has a problem and needs me there, I stop what I'm doing and I'm there for him. Is that too much to ask for from him? I don't know. Things are a bit better between him and I right now but I'm not so sure if I can count on him being there for me for the big things anymore. He's there for me with the small things but he's never there for me when it's something big. Should I sit here and let it go? Am I over-reacting?
I really hope Vikki gets better soon. I'm really worried about her. I wish there was a way to help her.
On Sunday at church (Josh went again! I swear the world is coming to an end! lol), Josh, Jill, Maria, and I were all prayed for. I think we all needed it. We have so much going on and we really need somebody to be there for us. What was prayed for, for us was probably the best thing for each of us. We even had Vikki prayed for even though she wasn't there.
I can't believe it's snowing and it's two weeks until spring break! I hate the snow and cold weather! Yesterday was such a nice day out and now today sucks! I can't even stand out there without freezing my butt off! I hate cold weather with a passion!
Well, I'm going...leave some comments! Gosh! lol. Just kidding!
xoxo,
*Alex*