Screened to Ginny

Oct 06, 2020 13:20

Thought I'd set up a few private posts for people. Hope I'm doing this right!

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bananas_an October 6 2008, 20:33:04 UTC
Envy plays into his insecurities, so of course he must be telling the truth. Yeah. I don't know what to do for him, Ginny.

He made no bones about it. I've been on his case because he cooked up some story for Ed about a "friend" of his "dying" and that's why he went nuts with Matt. I don't buy it, so I keep asking him. So far no answers. And I've accused him of lying, which you know he says he never does. And he said, "Everyone lies."

Anyway, I told Akaya that. That Envy said everyone lies. That'd include him, right?

I don't know about sealing, but I think it's as close to death as they can get?

Oh, nothing much. Akaya asked me what I thought and I told him everything we'd talked about--Haine hung on on Badou and Akaya still working through Kevin. I asked him if he was ready for sex, only because Haine's older and more experienced, so if they do get together, he might expect it. Oh, and I told him Haine's going to have to get used to having females around 'cause there is no way I'm staying away from my best friend and you aren't staying away either.

And Akaya'd thought about all that stuff. Not so sure he'd admitted to himself about Haine and Badou. We talked about Squalo and "boyfriend visitation rights" and stuff.

Akaya asked me what I thought because he thought Haine was pulling his leg. I told him no way. Haine's not like that. But what I didn't tell him is I'm a little concerned since Haine went from "you're my little brother" to "I have a crush" awfully fast.

Sorry for the rant.

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hex_you_up October 6 2008, 20:45:24 UTC
I don't either. I'm so frightened for him and I have no idea that I can do to help.

That's bullshite, I don't believe it for a second. You remember that one time they had that huge fight? Greed and Envy, I mean. And they nearly destroyed their... castle, or whatever it is. Envy's unhinged. Maybe Greed just took one wrong step and Envy lost it.

And yeah. It would. Envy's a liar, there's no doubt about it in my mind.

The only thing that really worries me is this -- because Woobie deserves to have someone who loves him, more than anyone -- I really think Haine's a good sort, and I like him, but I also know he's got loads of emotional baggage and I don't think Woobie needs to be dealing with that right now.

That said... He needs someone. And I almost wonder if getting into something with Haine, if he could get over Kevin... that wouldn't balance it out.

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bananas_an October 6 2008, 20:55:25 UTC
I'd tell him how I feel if I thought it would help, but it'd only make him feel bad. Someone has to convince him he's lovable.

Oh, I know it is! I tried to tell Ed that, but he's all stuck on "He's my brother." And that's stupid, because Envy and Ed are from two different versions of their canon. Oh, yeah. And Envy nearly killed Greed that one time. He does stupid stuff and then whines, "Oh, poor me. What have I done? No one understands me. Boo hoo hoo."

He said, Greed-san was a "hindrance."

Definitely. I was stupid to ever believe him. And you know what makes me stupider? I still care. I'm such an idiot.

Yes! You put it better than I did. I asked Akaya if he was willing to share because I honestly think that's what it'd be. And maybe when you're older. But when you're barely sixteen and your first? I don't think you should have to. I sure wouldn't want it.

Haine doesn't seem to think he's worth anything either. They'll either shore each other up or pull each other down. I hope it's the first.

Yeah. You know. I like Haine and I don't want to see him be someone's rebound because he deserves good stuff, too. I wish they'd both dated around. Waited. And then try and see what happens.

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hex_you_up October 6 2008, 21:04:07 UTC
I think you're probably right. Might even send him on a guilt trip, which is the last thing he needs.

That may all be true -- but none of it negates or changes the fact that he's mental.

I don't. I'm long past caring.

I know I wouldn't either. And like I said -- I mean, he doesn't necessarily need a serious, long-term relationship right now, but he needs one that's going to mean something. He needs to be cared for.

Yeah. I think you're right, on both those counts. They could either be terrible for each other, or good for each other -- but I'm still so scared for him that I almost don't want to see him risk it, you know?

[ooc: GET ONLINE AND IM ME THERE IS SOMETHING VERY VERY VERY IMPORTANT I NEED TO TELL YOU BECAUSE I AM SPAZZING HARDCORE AND YOU NEED TO KNOW]

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bananas_an October 6 2008, 21:25:07 UTC
I think so, too. I don't want him to ever know.

Entirely.

I do and I don't. I care for the lie, and that's so stupid I want to smack myself.

Yes. He needs to be put first.

Yep. And you can't say anything. ;__;

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hex_you_up October 6 2008, 21:45:28 UTC
I sort of think so too.

The only reason I care is that it's hurting other people.

Exactly. He's been sidelined and considered last for so long that he needs someone who he'll be really important to.

No.

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bananas_an October 6 2008, 21:52:29 UTC
^_^

Yeah. I wish he'd never come back.

I'm so tired of people treating him like he doesn't matter. He laughs and smiles and everyone thinks he's a kid, but he's not.

I wish he'd believe us.

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hex_you_up October 6 2008, 22:12:01 UTC
He's not, though. I mean, yeah, he's only sixteen, but he's not a child.

I do too. I love him so much and he can't believe it -- because of his damn parents! It makes me so angry.

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bananas_an October 6 2008, 22:16:27 UTC
No, he's not. Most people never stop to wonder what's behind everything.

I really want to find his mom and give her a piece of my mind. You know they covered up what his dad was doing for years, right? I know they did 'cause his sister covered his bruises with make-up. God.

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hex_you_up October 6 2008, 22:32:26 UTC
They don't. Makes me even sadder.

Me too. I've said this before -- I don't understand how any mother could do that to her children. I never did, but even more so now. I would give my life for my baby, I can't comprehend how she wouldn't -- and for someone like Woobie, too, when he's such a loving, selfless person.

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bananas_an October 6 2008, 23:55:57 UTC
People on here can be such jerks, too.

I don't get it. She was so proud when she showed me his photos. I never understood why she put up with his dad, but thought maybe she thought it'd make things worse. Still.

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hex_you_up October 7 2008, 00:03:34 UTC
Envy's certainly not helping. I don't know why Woobie still even bothers with him.

I'd always thought she was putting up with him for Woobie and his sister's sake -- but then she took off, so...

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bananas_an October 7 2008, 00:12:13 UTC
I know, right? He wants to be loved so badly. How the hell he believes Envy likes him...I mean look at all the people Envy's "loved" that he's turned against. And Envy only talked to Akaya because he was sucking up to Kevin and he only sucked up to Kevin in the beginning to get on Gaara's good side.

And there's this sick part of me that thinks, "Envy lights to collect innocent young boys." Maybe his objections to Haine aren't so much that Haine was Matt's friend as that Envy's been...hoping to groom Akaya.

Me, too. I mean, when she first disappeared, I honestly thought his dad killed her. That's how much I couldn't believe she'd abandon him.

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hex_you_up October 7 2008, 00:19:51 UTC
It doesn't seem like it should be so much to ask for, does it? I wonder why he doesn't believe that we love him.

Oh, god. I don't even want to -- oh, god. I hadn't even thought of that. I feel sick.

...I did too.

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bananas_an October 7 2008, 00:59:31 UTC
Because he doesn't believe he's lovable.

Sorry. Maybe it's me that's sick to think something like that.

...really? I was afraid to say anything. I finally told Badou. They were gonna find her. Then Akiya showed up and told us where she was.

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hex_you_up October 7 2008, 01:07:05 UTC
And again -- because of his damn parents.

No. But. He. Oh, gods.

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