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Been thinking a lot about life, school, and friends. Who are my friends? Where is my life going to take me? When will my days at Riverside finally be over?(I am SO ready to leave) They've all been on my mind at the same exact time and its really killin' my brain. All this thinking is even giving my a big ass headache...
Just because of all the shit happening all around me. Sure, I know that we all die and if I go it's just my time but people are dying for no reason at all. I'm so sick of all the gun violence and especially the fact that nobody is doing shit about it. George Fucking W. Bush is so concerned about Iraq but what about the gun wars taking their toll in your own damn country? Why won't he do something or at least take a stand on the whole gun thing? Maybe if it were harder to get a gun then people wouldn't always resort to picking up one and shooting innocent people or themselves. No, that doesn't really matter at all. Or like how my mind wonders and wonders around the fact that when I leave the house I am scared. I don't show that I am scared but I am. Scared of the thought of being robbed, raped, or shot for no good reason. And my head hurts from thinking about dying for no reason, at eighteen. I have a headache most of the time because of this fact. It's really hard to love life SO much when every minute I feel like its going to end. I just hate it when I mind plays games with my worries.
it's all just a messed up system that us city kids have been forced to be in our whole lifes. MPS is spiraling and where is it going to end up? I would like to know because this is our one opportunity as city kids to show the world that we aren't just that-CITY KIDS. We are doctors, lawyers, writers, singers, and anything else you could possibly think of. I mean for God sake, they just made it legal for all the 'out of control' kids to be put in plastic handcuffs. What the fuck is that all about? The city kids are, apparently, the root of every problem going on in Wisconsin. Where were changes when the Nicolet/Whitefish Bay fights were going on? I don't recall EVER hearing anything about new rules being placed in those school districts. The school board loves to make new rules and bogus changes because of what they see on the news. If one school is doing something bad then sure enough every other school is going to do the same thing. Plus, most of the board members don't even have students who are in MPS. So, what do they even know about us and what we do? Its all a power thing. The rich need to have power over the little poor city kids. I'm waiting for the day when we are all treated like every other kid in Wisconsin and not the GANGSTERS, BLACK KIDS, and THUGS, the news shows us as. We're so bad but yet all the crazy shit, like kids bringing guns to school and killing innocent people, happens in the middle of no where. At least we're smart enough to treat eachother like humans and not like pieces of shit, like the kids in the suburbs treat their fellow classmates. At least when the city kids hear about a fight they don't believe that its going to happen in their school but yet we FIGHT to make sure it doesn't happen. I'm just sick of having to prove myself to all the people who see MPS as bullshit. I'm so happy to leave but yet I know one of my goals is to come back and fix all this nonsense!
because its blurry. One day I think I know who my realy friends are and who is going to always be here for me and the next I'm so unsure. It sucks. It sucks because I've losted some really good friends this year but yet gained a lot of awesome new ones. I've become aware of the fact that I'm probably not going to talk to like 90% of the people I am friends with right now. Just because I believe many are pretending to be friends with me because its all almost over. I just wish I knew, once and for all, who was real and who was fake!
Man, this weekend has really got me thinking!
Just because of all the shit happening all around me. Sure, I know that we all die and if I go it's just my time but people are dying for no reason at all. I'm so sick of all the gun violence and especially the fact that nobody is doing shit about it. George Fucking W. Bush is so concerned about Iraq but what about the gun wars taking their toll in your own damn country? Why won't he do something or at least take a stand on the whole gun thing? Maybe if it were harder to get a gun then people wouldn't always resort to picking up one and shooting innocent people or themselves. No, that doesn't really matter at all. Or like how my mind wonders and wonders around the fact that when I leave the house I am scared. I don't show that I am scared but I am. Scared of the thought of being robbed, raped, or shot for no good reason. And my head hurts from thinking about dying for no reason, at eighteen. I have a headache most of the time because of this fact. It's really hard to love life SO much when every minute I feel like its going to end. I just hate it when I mind plays games with my worries.
it's all just a messed up system that us city kids have been forced to be in our whole lifes. MPS is spiraling and where is it going to end up? I would like to know because this is our one opportunity as city kids to show the world that we aren't just that-CITY KIDS. We are doctors, lawyers, writers, singers, and anything else you could possibly think of. I mean for God sake, they just made it legal for all the 'out of control' kids to be put in plastic handcuffs. What the fuck is that all about? The city kids are, apparently, the root of every problem going on in Wisconsin. Where were changes when the Nicolet/Whitefish Bay fights were going on? I don't recall EVER hearing anything about new rules being placed in those school districts. The school board loves to make new rules and bogus changes because of what they see on the news. If one school is doing something bad then sure enough every other school is going to do the same thing. Plus, most of the board members don't even have students who are in MPS. So, what do they even know about us and what we do? Its all a power thing. The rich need to have power over the little poor city kids. I'm waiting for the day when we are all treated like every other kid in Wisconsin and not the GANGSTERS, BLACK KIDS, and THUGS, the news shows us as. We're so bad but yet all the crazy shit, like kids bringing guns to school and killing innocent people, happens in the middle of no where. At least we're smart enough to treat eachother like humans and not like pieces of shit, like the kids in the suburbs treat their fellow classmates. At least when the city kids hear about a fight they don't believe that its going to happen in their school but yet we FIGHT to make sure it doesn't happen. I'm just sick of having to prove myself to all the people who see MPS as bullshit. I'm so happy to leave but yet I know one of my goals is to come back and fix all this nonsense!
because its blurry. One day I think I know who my realy friends are and who is going to always be here for me and the next I'm so unsure. It sucks. It sucks because I've losted some really good friends this year but yet gained a lot of awesome new ones. I've become aware of the fact that I'm probably not going to talk to like 90% of the people I am friends with right now. Just because I believe many are pretending to be friends with me because its all almost over. I just wish I knew, once and for all, who was real and who was fake!
Man, this weekend has really got me thinking!