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soooo unfortunately i suck again. i dunno what happened. friday night we went out and it was so good. i was drunk but not bad. some dick stole my phone and called clare i guess... then called zach and was like hey is this the guy hooking up with anna braden? and zach was like ya this is her boyfriend, who's this? and hes like this is the other guy hooking up with anna braden. it was fucking weird. then i called him and like bitched him out and he brought me my phone. weird. but friday was fun. angies creeper came over for a bit thought and was a ddiiiccckk. he walks in and sits down. starts eating MY popcorn. then tells me to change MY tv to ESPN. i was like WTF?? manners??
anyways.. then last night there was this CEO office ho party.. and there was prefunking and the we took a cab cuz the party was like 109309 miles away. and i got pretty shitty even though i was being careful.. or i thought i was. i dunno what happened and i like semi blacked out. i was mean to angie... and then got mad at zach when we were walking back... i kicked off my heels nad booked it like 4 blocks... then some guy saw me and zach was chasing me. i think he must have thought i was being raped. and he pulled over to make sure we were ok then ended up giving us a ride. nice guy. zach told him i was really drunk which i of course didnt appreciate and he said that i seemed pretty coherent. and i was like THANK YOU. even though i definitely wasnt. lost my keys. luckily this girl in our hall found them then john ended up having them. and lost my phone. sarah farely was nice enough to drive me to go get it at like 2. from the people that found it in the street. then i started sobering up nad realized i was a bitch... i tried to wait up for zach but ended up falling asleep on about 1/4 of my bed..
then i woke up this morning at like 730 nad was like shiiit. called zach and slept there for a bit then we both woke up and hes like can we talk. and i was like ya. and i apologized for last night and he was like.. i was thinking about it all night.. and i dont want to do this anymore. i cant its too hard. so you have to choose. drinking or me? and of course i choose him.. becuase i love that boy.. and drinking is doing nothing for me right now but making me feel completely stupid and embarassed and i just lose shit and just nothing good comes from it. so im done for a while.. hes not gonna drink either.. i honestly do think its a good idea.. im just worried that im like not gonna wanna go out cuz it wont be fun then i'll be like antisocial.. but im hoping that doesnt happen. i told angie to make me go out.. even if i dont want to. we'll see how things go. but i honestly dont deserve to drink.. i cant keep things in check.. and im too belligerent. im so jealous of people who can go out and get drunk and not make just idiots of themselves...
soo that was my weekend.. good times.. not really. i suck at life. a lot.
love and miss you girls SOOOO much!
anyways.. then last night there was this CEO office ho party.. and there was prefunking and the we took a cab cuz the party was like 109309 miles away. and i got pretty shitty even though i was being careful.. or i thought i was. i dunno what happened and i like semi blacked out. i was mean to angie... and then got mad at zach when we were walking back... i kicked off my heels nad booked it like 4 blocks... then some guy saw me and zach was chasing me. i think he must have thought i was being raped. and he pulled over to make sure we were ok then ended up giving us a ride. nice guy. zach told him i was really drunk which i of course didnt appreciate and he said that i seemed pretty coherent. and i was like THANK YOU. even though i definitely wasnt. lost my keys. luckily this girl in our hall found them then john ended up having them. and lost my phone. sarah farely was nice enough to drive me to go get it at like 2. from the people that found it in the street. then i started sobering up nad realized i was a bitch... i tried to wait up for zach but ended up falling asleep on about 1/4 of my bed..
then i woke up this morning at like 730 nad was like shiiit. called zach and slept there for a bit then we both woke up and hes like can we talk. and i was like ya. and i apologized for last night and he was like.. i was thinking about it all night.. and i dont want to do this anymore. i cant its too hard. so you have to choose. drinking or me? and of course i choose him.. becuase i love that boy.. and drinking is doing nothing for me right now but making me feel completely stupid and embarassed and i just lose shit and just nothing good comes from it. so im done for a while.. hes not gonna drink either.. i honestly do think its a good idea.. im just worried that im like not gonna wanna go out cuz it wont be fun then i'll be like antisocial.. but im hoping that doesnt happen. i told angie to make me go out.. even if i dont want to. we'll see how things go. but i honestly dont deserve to drink.. i cant keep things in check.. and im too belligerent. im so jealous of people who can go out and get drunk and not make just idiots of themselves...
soo that was my weekend.. good times.. not really. i suck at life. a lot.
love and miss you girls SOOOO much!