LJ Idol 10.10 - Take a Hike

[banana_galaxy]

I should leave.

"You're going to come up to my room, right?"

I should leave.

"Just for a couple of minutes. I do have to get back to my friends."

"Of course. I'm not expecting you to fuck me tonight. We'll save that for tomorrow morning. I just want to make out."

I should leave. My feet carry me forward, following her upstairs. We pass another

Comments

[penpusher]

Sometimes a little of what you want is better than nothing, even if it means potentially losing a chance to actually get what you want if you poured such effort into finding it. It's really a matter of convenience, isn't it? It's a matter of geographic proximity and the timing of horny desires.

I love the concept of having "a love affair with secret romances."

[banana_galaxy]

That certainly seems true for my life. I tend to settle because it's better than nothing. And/or I'm just crazy horny. Which seems to be where I'm at now, and why I'm open to hooking up with that guy who said we should stop dating/just be friends again. I mean, the sex was good, so if he actually bothers to make an effort, then why not? But I think he's probably just interested in fucking, not even dating again. My confusion around what he wanted before was why I agreed it was better to stop, because I was actually looking for a relationship then.

It's really quite bizarre, because I don't specifically go looking for them, they just happen to find me. There's another guy in my life that I'm going on a date with tomorrow night that, at the moment, looks like it's set to go that route, too, because we met through a mutual good friend, who was rather judgemental about me hooking up with the other guy (they were also friends), and I'm not sure either of us has the heart to talk to this mutual friend about the possibility of us hooking up

[penpusher]

The "you'll never miss what you don't know" element comes into play too, because if what you come across gets the job done, that fills the bill. It's like eating a junk food meal before ever eyeballing a full layout of a sumptuous feast just a couple of feet away. Your needs have previously been sated.

Fucking definitely is worth the effort on its own. But it's still all about what your appetite wants at that moment. Still, I don't know, especially if you're crazy horny, that you would have to actively do anything to attract that kind of response. People will pick up on that through looks, through almost inaudible sound, through scent, through body heat. That's the animal side of being human; long, long before language, we communicated to each other exclusively with our bodies.

[banana_galaxy]

That's certainly true. Though I also find that even when I choose not to follow through on what I can have, I don't really make any effort to try harder to get what I actually want. Because it's a very time consuming effort to just meet new people and get to know them.

Ha! Yes I suspect that has something to do with why I got propositioned by two different guys in the same night last week. XD Still, nothing has happened with either of them in that time, because I'm tired of chasing after people when they don't make the same effort in return. Also, one of them specifically told me if we do anything, it's to remain private, between us, and I'm not sure how I feel about that right now.

[i_17bingo]

This was fun. I could really feel the desire and the urgency of said desire. Well done!

[banana_galaxy]

Thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed. It's been a while since I've written something quite like this.

[rayaso]

Very well written! It must have been fun writing this from the male perspective, and I can see how it dovetails into your life, from what you wrote above.

[banana_galaxy]

Oh, definitely. I don't think I'd written a het sex scene from the male perspective before, so it was fun to try!

[eternal_ot]

Yeah, even I enjoyed the POV after I read the explanation. The sweet mix of urgency and desire is well captured through your words. Nice Job!

[banana_galaxy]

Heh, thanks!

[dmousey]

Heyyyy!! I wanted a hot lesbian hook up! (Laughing) but this is cool. I enjoyed this, and the uhm, attraction is palpable! Well done. Hugs and peace~~~

[banana_galaxy]

haha, you know, the funny thing is I was thinking of making this a lesbian piece. Perhaps next time, if I survive this poll! I'm glad you still enjoyed it, though.