welcome to my nightmare -emily
I'm starting the year at Paideia. realistically this won't work out and i'll end up at bfa with roman, cyd and all my party buddies. I visited bfa today and I knew about half the people there. weird. tom I'm attending classes, just to see what its like.
I hate life and have legitimate reasons for feeling this way. I have come to the conclusion that no one understands. Stop being so fucking happy. I'm jealous. The positive attitude is a bunch of crap and I've given up trying to please people. well, actually the only reason why I haven't killed myself is for other people. I don't want to hurt my family and other people that I effect. Just understand, world, that I struggle and hate exhistance.
"bleed just to know you're alive"
If people don't want to be my friend because I'm too fucked up I frankly don't care. I have come to terms with the fact that i may have very few friends this year at school, but at least I will be with people I genuinly like. I don't want to fake pleasure that I don't actually experience. Frown! he.
I hate life and have legitimate reasons for feeling this way. I have come to the conclusion that no one understands. Stop being so fucking happy. I'm jealous. The positive attitude is a bunch of crap and I've given up trying to please people. well, actually the only reason why I haven't killed myself is for other people. I don't want to hurt my family and other people that I effect. Just understand, world, that I struggle and hate exhistance.
"bleed just to know you're alive"
If people don't want to be my friend because I'm too fucked up I frankly don't care. I have come to terms with the fact that i may have very few friends this year at school, but at least I will be with people I genuinly like. I don't want to fake pleasure that I don't actually experience. Frown! he.