RaChEl =(
Haven`t written in a while.. a lot`s happened.. I don`t really wanna fill yu in tho =) lol i`ll juss start as of today.. I really really really fuckin miss my best friend... In case y`all didn`t notice.. [which yu probably did considering ur on muh friend`s list] .. I lost my best friend~ We drifted apart, she`s in high school now, and she doesn`t need me.. God i always told her "i don`t know what i would do wiffout you, i would be lost.." and for the first time, i really am.. I know this is pathetic, but i miss her so fuckin bad!! I hate all her new friends~ I MEAN DAMN* I`ve been there for YEARS and they step in and take my place in a matter of weeks.. Maybe it`s cuz i`m not the party girl i used to be.. Is it REALLY that bad that i juss wanna be normal, not a whore-or a drunk-or get in trouble.. I`m juss a normal kid now, and i don`t do bad things.. and as SOON as i established that, she made new friends.. Am i really that bad of a person? Me and rae.. scratch that .. me and RACHEL have been through it all, and never even fought.. and now were nothing.. and the reason i scratched the rae part, is cuz only her bestest friends call her that.. You see i wrote her a long letter, telling her how bad i miss her.. but i don`t think they mailed it yet, and shhe called me two days ago, and we talked.. and we used to talk like every minute of everyday.. she was like the sister i never had.. I don`t really know what else to say, but i can`t stop crying.. i have no one to turn to n e more, besides kyle- damn whuts happening to me?