i'm the type to get lonely pretty easily...so I get swayed by even the smallest gestures; and what you're doing right now sways me like crazy, so if you're just playing with my feelings, you need to stop.
destiny's a real bastard. it never gives everyone an equal piece of happiness, but... the only thing we can choose is to be together; even if we can't change destiy... our happiness depends on ourselves.
my entire life, i've been floating alone, going through the ups and downs by myself, i've been a nobody; i'm one of those shadows behind the pretty ones, walking this meaningless journey, but then, i found you... and my life was changed.
I had already... decided to never fall in love with anyone anymore.
never?
Never!!!
Why?
Because, what do i do if i fall in love? i'll start to wish that the other person will live me back; and if that wasn't gpnna happenen, then i should have never fallen in love in the first place.
Just thinking about tou finding a lover, having friends other than me around you, and being ok with me not being around; my stomach feels like it's gonna be crushed. i don't know of any other way to ocnfirm those feelings; if we can't go back to being friends anymore, thenwe can at least try this out without regret.
until now, i lived caring too much about what others think; what people think of when they se me, killing a part of myself so that i won't be hated by others
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