Big F'ing U-Turn
Yesterday was really cool,I got to see people that I don't get to see that often anymore and some that are cool to see no matter how often it is.After bio. and lunch,I hooked up with Jonathan in the caf. and worked on our Western Civ. project.Then Ash and I went to the mall and as we were pulling in to park we saw that Jason was working,Joker was there,and Jerry was there.We parked next to jerry's jeep and comensed stalking him all CIA style through the mall so we could smoot him before he could smoot us (Smoot is a game that our friend Levi created and with certain people it can get very intense lol) So we finally found Jerry,smooted him and then walked through the mall with him for a while just goofing off.We stopped by the kiosk that Jason works at (it's really dumb!)and while we were standing there,Chris came up to me from Pacsun and talked for a bit.Chris is so funny I luv him!The Ash and I left and went to Michael's so Ash could get Michael to burn the new Bloodhound Gang CD for her.We got there and Ash saw Rashad's car I was like YAY! Rashad! We walked in and Ash got to the top of the stairs and Into Michael's room before me.I hear Rashad ask "Who is with you?" and then "NIKKI!! Nikki,Nikki!Move,get out of my way!" *pushes through Ash and Michael,runs full force towards me,pushes me into the wall in the hallway and hugs me* It was funny,I felt the love.We left there,Ash drove me back to my car at Western and I drove her up to the caf. for her Gov't. meeting thing.I called Joe and went BACK to the mall to hang out with him.That's when I decided that I am officially a mall rat...I got a lot recently and it's weird,but when you start going more thatn once in a day it's official!While we were there we saw Aubrey,and Keith.The Joe went to work and I went to Books-A-Million on my way home.Ryan called while I was there and we caught up on whats been going on in our lives recently.He told me I should come down to the coffee shop so I did,I haven't been there in sooo long which is weird since I use to be there every day!I got there,ordered a chocolate-cherry kiss and hung out with Ryan.On my way to MM I saw Jason's car at the light turning from the troutville CVS area,whereas I was at the light beside the Hardees.I called and told him I saw him and he said he was heading to the coffee shop too.So Jason and his girlfriend (who is so unattractive,I'm sorry) showed up and stayed for a couple minutes after going to Blockbuster.In the few minutes they were there,Saa & Dean called,mom called,Pez called,and Jusitn called.My phone was bein BLOWN UP!Pez,Sara,and Dean came to the coffee shop for a bit,then Sara and Dean left and the three of us that were left,hung out.After freezing outside,Pez ordered me to warm up in his car so I did and then we headed to Denny's.When we got there,Sara,Dean,and Ashley were already there.Then Bryan and Nina showed up,and then Justin,and then Joe.We had a big group last night!After a while,things narrowed back down to the usual...me,Joe,Justin,and Bryan.I started having a bad night just suddenly while everyone was still there and it got worse.See,when it starts getting cold,I get depressed,seriously.I cry for no reason,I get irritated at little things and other than the cold,there's not one specific thing that sets it off so I can't control it.Well,I had my head on the table and started shaking and tears were running down my face.I started talking about how I've been seriously concidering asking mom to get me to a doctor and put me on some medication for this but I'm scared that it will change more of me than just my level of happiness.Bryan took me to the side because he has gone through all of this and I know it.He talked to me and told me that when he went through it all,no medication helped,it made him happy but it wasn't him and the only thing that made him feel better was writing so he gave me an assignment...write something down every day,at least once,no matter what it is and ALWAYS carry that notebook with me.Damn...I have to leave for work in one minute....I wanted to talk more about the night and what amzing friends I have...I'll edit this later and finish it....