I'm seriously crying my eyes out right now

[bampete]

My life is too fucking unstable. just 15 minutes ago I was fine but irritated. 1 hour ago I was in pain, but very happy.
Then 10 minutes ago I got a next message. Now I'm crying and I can't stop.

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[kutschi]

may i offer you a big fat hug with a cherry on top? ...

[bampete]

Yes you may and thank you. *cries more*

[kutschi]

aw sweets! i know how you feel. i'm not that bloody emotional rollercoaster aswell and can't seem to get off.
today is a rather okay day. but we'll see what tomorrow brings ...

it'll pass, i'm sure *big fat hug*

[bampete]

damn, you're going through it too? I feel bad for you.
I was just talking to the friends that caused my crying (they pushed my button, so to say, but they weren't the real reason for me becoming an emotional wreck) and I was fine... then afterwards when we "supposedly" were fine, I was a total mess again....

[bampete]

I hide most of my feelings inside cause I can't handle conflicts due to my parents divorce and my mother... I tried to do a conflict today. Didn't work out. Then my mate scarted a conflict with me which resulted with me in tears and her saying she was sorry. am still crying a bit. can't help it.

[bampete]

I know I will. I just can't handle being so instable and it coming up on me when I least expect it.

[magical_barbie]

*hugs*

[bampete]

*hugs back*
My life was a downright mess yesturday, it's a bit better today, however.. a bit.

[blurred_rubbish]

Oh dear /: What happened?

Good gig, btw?

[bampete]

Shortly; two of my friends got pissed off at me cause of my dad (nothing serious, really) and then they wouldn't talk to me and I got really frustrated and I was already pissed off cause I had a bad conversation with my mom and being tired and I hate conflicts (due to parents divorce etc, I'm analyzing myself because of Psychology) so that resulted somehow in major crying and then them apologizing for their behaviour (one of them is a bit skitzo when she gets stressed, so...). All's fine now though.
Yes, it was a good gig! I stood in the front, pretty close to the middle. Almost got totally mashed. Girls where fainting all around due to the pressure. It was really cool though. I was like 10 cm from Manson a while and he sang "beautiful people" holding my mate's hand for a while. He had all these cool stage-props like this huge chair, a podium and a knife at the end of his microphone. =P

[rain_polish]

Hey, Caroline. I just read that up there, and I'm so sorry about all that crap. :( *cuddles*

The gig sounds amazing! That's very Manson to have a knife involved.

Hope you're well! Sorry for being a douch and not commenting lately.

xxxx

[bampete]

I'm alright, thank you. Thanks for the cuddling. Yes it was very cool with the knife. He said that everybody blames him for all these school-massacres and was stabbing with the knife in the air... was cool. I was about 10 cm to 20 meters away from him all during the gig. He looked at me for a while whilst singing "sweet dreams" *was a bit frightened, yes* =P and he thew out heartshaped glasses into the crowd when he started singing Heartshaped Glasses. and a girl threw up her panties onstage which he smelled happily saying that he don't usually shower. haha. also he talked about the "vagina-avalanche" he'd experienced last night which had gotten his throat all fucked up. the doctor had told him not to play tonight but he didn't give a damn about that :P

[aw_haw]

*squishes*

That sounds a lot like me at the moment. Ugh. -___-

[bampete]

Aww no, I suffer with you a lot!
I'm better today, however. Not good. But a little better.