In Your Head
Today (13/1) it's Barry's 21st birthday. We're gonna celebrate it friday at Sticky Fingers with In Flames (the band) having a DJ-set and some band's going to play. I can't wait. It's gonna be so much fun. I hung out with her basically all day (today? 12/1-13/1) and we watched True Grit and You Again. We had loads of fun. Her youngest brother (she has three younger brothers) Henrik was lying on the floor and watching True Grit with us, but he fell asleep. On his BELLY. And started snoring. And didn't want to move. it was hilarious. Poor guy he must've been dead tired.
Yesterday (ugh, two days ago or whatever) I slept over at Jokke's and Christoffer's. We watched movies too. Chatroom and Megamind. And Jokke and I called "Desperate daters" hotline again. And he pretended to be a girl. And I pretended to be a guy, sometimes. So much fun. Sillyness.
I made a person feel better today. Her name is Malin. She lives around Stockholm and she's really cute. I found her on "Qruiser", which is a Nordic Homo-bi-trans-queer-site. She was really bummed today and texted me and I told her something to make her feel better and she said I really helped. I love helping people so that made my day. It helps that she's cute aswell.... Also I have a new girl on msn, whom I've only talked to on Qruiser (QX, for short) before. She looks like (and thinks she has the twin-soul of) Marilyn Monroe. And apparently she thinks I'm pretty too. So that's good.
Amanda poured guilt on me yesterday through texts. Basically she says that I'm a bad friend because I don't call her all the time and that she thinks she values our friendship higher than I do. Ugh. So tomorrow (well, today) I'm gonna go to yoga-class with her. But it's mostly because I want her to stop whining about me not caring about our friendship. She thinks that since I've been busy since Saturday, like real busy, I even slept away monday cause I was so beat) she thinks I'm a bad friend, which I never intended to be. So yay for the buckets of guilt she threw over me with those texts. UGH.
Also I have real insomnia problems again (therefore I'm writing this at 2 AM and I'm really awake). Mom thinks I should go see a doctor since it's been going on and acting up a lot these latest three-four years or so. But I don't see the point. She's become worried that I'll become burnout and have a mental breakdown.
I'm gonna go look at an apartment tomorrow with Christoffer and Jokke for Christoffer.
Yesterday I went to arbetsförmedlingen (the jobcentre) and signed up as a jobsearcher again. And I'm going on a meeting with my job-advisor-person on tuesday next week. And on friday next week I'm going on some recruiting-meeting-thing. I dunno. Hope I get a job. Soon as fuck.
Also my mom called my grandfather "Fat" on saturday. Because he said she also eats to little (since she was saying me and Viking eat too little - especially Viking). UGH. Mom came to the relative-meeting and said straight out to her going-deaf-dad that it's OVER 2000 days she's LOST because of a certain person in the room. That person being my dad. Supposedly. No wonder my cousin asked me if I wanted to go for a smoke basically right in front of my mom. Mom complained and complained and complained. I think Viking's getting more affected by it lately too since he realises that he needs to live probably the rest of his life having a mentally instable mother who loves making a fool of him and me and our dad. And her relatives and friends. It sucks.
no wonder I have sleep issues, man.