Seems easier just waiting round to die
In case you guys hadn´t noticed already - I feel awful. I don´t know how else I could explain it.
I doubt I´ve ever felt this suicidal before and I just don´t know what to do with myself.
I´ve hurt the person I love..
She´s even blocked me from reading her LJ.
Gustav told me yesterday I was stupid to break up with Louisa. I think he noticed how shitty I felt.
I guess Hanna noticed me crying tonight aswell cause she´s invited me to go to the Circus tonight with her.
Dad´s bought me a handbag I´ve wanted for a really long time and paid for my travelcard even if he said he couldn´t really afford it.
Obviously people around me are noticing something´s wrong.
Got really drunk lastnight when I was out with Gustav, Barry and Hanna. Had fun, but didn't enjoy myself. Drunkdialed and talked to Emma aswell when we were @ Flame. We met Malin and Therese and later Malin texted me saying that Therese couldn´t stop puking and they got driven to the hospital because of it. Horrible.
Then Hanna and I slept at Gustav´s house. Not that I slept much. Might have slept all in all 6 hours. Barely. Woke up at 5 AM then at 12 AM.
I doubt I´ve ever felt this suicidal before and I just don´t know what to do with myself.
I´ve hurt the person I love..
She´s even blocked me from reading her LJ.
Gustav told me yesterday I was stupid to break up with Louisa. I think he noticed how shitty I felt.
I guess Hanna noticed me crying tonight aswell cause she´s invited me to go to the Circus tonight with her.
Dad´s bought me a handbag I´ve wanted for a really long time and paid for my travelcard even if he said he couldn´t really afford it.
Obviously people around me are noticing something´s wrong.
Got really drunk lastnight when I was out with Gustav, Barry and Hanna. Had fun, but didn't enjoy myself. Drunkdialed and talked to Emma aswell when we were @ Flame. We met Malin and Therese and later Malin texted me saying that Therese couldn´t stop puking and they got driven to the hospital because of it. Horrible.
Then Hanna and I slept at Gustav´s house. Not that I slept much. Might have slept all in all 6 hours. Barely. Woke up at 5 AM then at 12 AM.