Dear Josh
Hi.
Ok, so I understand both of us are pretty caught up in our own deal with school and life. I understand we both get frustrated and we don't always have time to dedicate time for each other.
But all I was asking was your simple effort, to recognize something that I find important and care about, and show that you care by making it a point to make sure it happens next time. I'm not mad just because you never remember and count every single months that we've been dating, i mean, that's ridiculous. But I think those little things do add up, it helps ME show YOU that I am thinking about us and that I'm really happy that we are in this relationship. I think it would be nice for YOU to think about ME sometime and just let me know that you are in fact thinking about us just by recognizing dates, and stuff like that.
I'm sorry that I may have over reacted, but it just really upsets me that you don't make any slightest effort to SHOW me you care.
Maybe I am asking for something you can't give me, and I'm asking too much of you for what you are capable of doing.
If then, I maybe should stop hoping that someday you will change and be the attentive, reflective of my wants/needs--- the person who will do what they say.
I know that when you are with someone for a long time, you stop paying attention to the qualities you fell in love with and adore about that person, and only view flaws and things that makes you upset about them. So I'm sorry that we have been fighting a lot recently and that I am not happy with our relationship.
That's why I suggested we take a break----because I think we both need time to realize that we take each other for granted and just get our shit together for the last bit of our spring quarter. And personally, I don't want to be with you until you can SHOW me that you care enough to put effort into our relationship to make it work and to make me happy, because I know same shit will keep happening over and over again and we will get into a fight every time and we will eventually break up for real.
(although you may have already gave up on making our relationship work, according to what you tell me)
As much as I really DON'T want to do this, and just go on with our lives pretending that I'm ok with what you do, and you're ok with how i act, I think it's not good for us as a long term thing.
Josh, I really can see us ending so easily. I don't want that to happen. I love you. and I love us. It kills me every time we fight. I rather have you, even as a friend, than to not have you at all. I'm really scared of what could happen, but I need to let you know that I'm not ok with your ineffective way of showing me that "you actually care".
Fuck, am I already your "Krystal" yet? Because I definately feel like I'm being more and more like her.
I wish I could talk to you.
- Maasa
Ok, so I understand both of us are pretty caught up in our own deal with school and life. I understand we both get frustrated and we don't always have time to dedicate time for each other.
But all I was asking was your simple effort, to recognize something that I find important and care about, and show that you care by making it a point to make sure it happens next time. I'm not mad just because you never remember and count every single months that we've been dating, i mean, that's ridiculous. But I think those little things do add up, it helps ME show YOU that I am thinking about us and that I'm really happy that we are in this relationship. I think it would be nice for YOU to think about ME sometime and just let me know that you are in fact thinking about us just by recognizing dates, and stuff like that.
I'm sorry that I may have over reacted, but it just really upsets me that you don't make any slightest effort to SHOW me you care.
Maybe I am asking for something you can't give me, and I'm asking too much of you for what you are capable of doing.
If then, I maybe should stop hoping that someday you will change and be the attentive, reflective of my wants/needs--- the person who will do what they say.
I know that when you are with someone for a long time, you stop paying attention to the qualities you fell in love with and adore about that person, and only view flaws and things that makes you upset about them. So I'm sorry that we have been fighting a lot recently and that I am not happy with our relationship.
That's why I suggested we take a break----because I think we both need time to realize that we take each other for granted and just get our shit together for the last bit of our spring quarter. And personally, I don't want to be with you until you can SHOW me that you care enough to put effort into our relationship to make it work and to make me happy, because I know same shit will keep happening over and over again and we will get into a fight every time and we will eventually break up for real.
(although you may have already gave up on making our relationship work, according to what you tell me)
As much as I really DON'T want to do this, and just go on with our lives pretending that I'm ok with what you do, and you're ok with how i act, I think it's not good for us as a long term thing.
Josh, I really can see us ending so easily. I don't want that to happen. I love you. and I love us. It kills me every time we fight. I rather have you, even as a friend, than to not have you at all. I'm really scared of what could happen, but I need to let you know that I'm not ok with your ineffective way of showing me that "you actually care".
Fuck, am I already your "Krystal" yet? Because I definately feel like I'm being more and more like her.
I wish I could talk to you.
- Maasa