i hate christmas
and the first morning in berlin proves to be mad gay.
they are still on my back about answering my phone and checking messages and shit. well i lost it again. i am gonna try to have them cancel my service cuz id really rather not have a phone.
then my dad tells me about the school bills which i know i cannot pay. i worked so fuckin much this semester and still dont have any money. probably all those fucking art supplies. i dont know how it happened. my parents said they would take money and shit, and i dont think they did. if they would just take it when i had it then they would have money, and i wouldnt have spent so much of it. yea, so he tells me this morning "school wont be covered by loans or aid. we need to pay them back"
and the stupid thing is i tell them all the time "how about i take off a sem and work" but they dont want me to do that. so what the hell do they expect me to do? i cant take any more hours in dish if im taking classes too. they should just accept the fact that i cant pay my tuition and get off my fuckin back and let me work and make money. if i stay up in amherst i will still want to take classes. i still want to do printmaking. but they are being so fucking gay. so i think i'll just tell them thats what im gonna do. and in that case id need to figure out about where i'd live. stay at boyles next semester i bet. it would be sweet if i could get another chick like anmarie to stay there so we could split rent.
basically ive been in this house with my father for two hours and i already want to kill myself and get the hell back to amherst. the house there makes me feel alot more welcome. not so ostrasized as i do here.
i dont know how i will do xmas shopping. i dont have anything for my mom. i know that she stole some of my prints though, when i needed them for my portfolio. which ileft in the fine art center. i was gonna get my dad a case of sammys. i should call up my bro about that.
christmas is really gay. the best present would be to not have it at all. hah, i put up a list on the fridge
colleens xmas list
1. cancel phone
2. cancel classes
3. cancel christmas.
really, thats all i want. that would make me so happy, and it wouldnt cost them a dime. fuck christmas
-baby boyle
they are still on my back about answering my phone and checking messages and shit. well i lost it again. i am gonna try to have them cancel my service cuz id really rather not have a phone.
then my dad tells me about the school bills which i know i cannot pay. i worked so fuckin much this semester and still dont have any money. probably all those fucking art supplies. i dont know how it happened. my parents said they would take money and shit, and i dont think they did. if they would just take it when i had it then they would have money, and i wouldnt have spent so much of it. yea, so he tells me this morning "school wont be covered by loans or aid. we need to pay them back"
and the stupid thing is i tell them all the time "how about i take off a sem and work" but they dont want me to do that. so what the hell do they expect me to do? i cant take any more hours in dish if im taking classes too. they should just accept the fact that i cant pay my tuition and get off my fuckin back and let me work and make money. if i stay up in amherst i will still want to take classes. i still want to do printmaking. but they are being so fucking gay. so i think i'll just tell them thats what im gonna do. and in that case id need to figure out about where i'd live. stay at boyles next semester i bet. it would be sweet if i could get another chick like anmarie to stay there so we could split rent.
basically ive been in this house with my father for two hours and i already want to kill myself and get the hell back to amherst. the house there makes me feel alot more welcome. not so ostrasized as i do here.
i dont know how i will do xmas shopping. i dont have anything for my mom. i know that she stole some of my prints though, when i needed them for my portfolio. which ileft in the fine art center. i was gonna get my dad a case of sammys. i should call up my bro about that.
christmas is really gay. the best present would be to not have it at all. hah, i put up a list on the fridge
colleens xmas list
1. cancel phone
2. cancel classes
3. cancel christmas.
really, thats all i want. that would make me so happy, and it wouldnt cost them a dime. fuck christmas
-baby boyle