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I am so happy with life right now... I must memorize this feeling so I can go back to it whenever I am depressed.
I was so spoiled at XMAs this year... I don't deserve all the people who love me... I don't understand.
So I went to a party tonight and it was fun just chatting. I realized tonight that I really am quite a loquacious being.
I am going to Charleston on New Years Eve and staying with my BOYFRIEND!!!!! ROBBIE is his name btw... I AM SO EXCITED!!!! I have an outfit picked out and everything. I like him so much (I'm afraid to use the word love) ...and it is bad because he has to leave this summer to audition... oh well....and I don't know I am having a hard time trusting him which is ridiculous because I know he cares about me a lot... just because actions speak louder than words and during exams basically to make a long story short I had a nervous break down and numerous panic attacks and he took care of (we had just started dating too)BUT I am so afraid of rejection just because of recent past relationship experiences.... oh well... don't think of the future (I should learn from my mistakes...trust me) enjoy the present for it is a gift... oh whatever the fuck that saying says.
MEANWHILE this week, work, work , work. COFC studen run organization is doing "Sylvia" *(abouta dog) it is my dream role and I think I have a big chance at the role BUT the catch is my boyfriend is directing it... so in order to get it... I have to be TEN times better then anybody else because he is professional like that (that is why I love him so )... so I need to work my ass of this week before I go out of town.....AND Mr.Ivey is doing Once Upon a Mattress in the spring and I want FREd like wicked bad... I need to work on that now so I don't get distracted.
But I am super excited becasue tomorrow is Fabulous Greg night and alter clothes day and then THursday is shopping day with JENNY and my MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was so spoiled at XMAs this year... I don't deserve all the people who love me... I don't understand.
So I went to a party tonight and it was fun just chatting. I realized tonight that I really am quite a loquacious being.
I am going to Charleston on New Years Eve and staying with my BOYFRIEND!!!!! ROBBIE is his name btw... I AM SO EXCITED!!!! I have an outfit picked out and everything. I like him so much (I'm afraid to use the word love) ...and it is bad because he has to leave this summer to audition... oh well....and I don't know I am having a hard time trusting him which is ridiculous because I know he cares about me a lot... just because actions speak louder than words and during exams basically to make a long story short I had a nervous break down and numerous panic attacks and he took care of (we had just started dating too)BUT I am so afraid of rejection just because of recent past relationship experiences.... oh well... don't think of the future (I should learn from my mistakes...trust me) enjoy the present for it is a gift... oh whatever the fuck that saying says.
MEANWHILE this week, work, work , work. COFC studen run organization is doing "Sylvia" *(abouta dog) it is my dream role and I think I have a big chance at the role BUT the catch is my boyfriend is directing it... so in order to get it... I have to be TEN times better then anybody else because he is professional like that (that is why I love him so )... so I need to work my ass of this week before I go out of town.....AND Mr.Ivey is doing Once Upon a Mattress in the spring and I want FREd like wicked bad... I need to work on that now so I don't get distracted.
But I am super excited becasue tomorrow is Fabulous Greg night and alter clothes day and then THursday is shopping day with JENNY and my MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!