If u would only be so kindly as to kill me NOW
i swear sometimes i think my gma and i are gonna kill each other she keeps callin me a lil kid and i had just NICELY said i dont like it when u call me a child or reference me to the rest of the little brats runnin around here .... nobody around ... said it very nicely and calmly ... even as much as it bothers me (i mean hell i live by myself 24-7 and dont ask for anything from ANYBODY) and 5 secs later she's askin me to get up and do shit for her ... and its something that i've shown her 5 times how to do herself ...its not that i dont mind doin it .... but DAMN ... do it urself u know ... I"VE SHOWN U .... U DO IT ... SHE AINT OLD ... and she is VERY capable ... if she can bitch about it she can do it herself
and then she's like i would think u would call this home .... WTF if im gonna call it HOME ... i better not be gettin kicked outa myown god dang room everytime i come over here .... WHICH I DO ... and if i lived here when i went off to college .... u wouldnt have told me to take EVERYTHING with me so that u can fix ur house the way u want it ... thats fuckin bull shit
and she goes off and starts crying ... UGH ... I SAID IT NICELY and used NO curse words ... which that alone is a big step ... she just wont stop .... i mean ... i was 3 steps from just sayin fuck it and goin to tuscaloosa ... im not 12 and they refuse to treat me like im grown
I pay ALL my bills and live alone ... im obviously not starving .... and i've paid back EVERYTHING ive EVER borrowed from anyone .... so what else should i do to keep from being called a child ... I MEAN REALLY ... and where the hell am i supposed to call home ... when i have nowhere to sleep ... and i get sent to the couch everytime i stay there
i mean honestly ... i feel like i have no home!!! .... and i dont even think they realize that ... this is like when i was sick and just wanted to say I WANNA go home ... but i cant b/c i have nowhere to call home ... OMG this sux
and there really is no one for me to talk about this to ... b/c everyone i know is all about going home and stuff and dont understand anything that goes on ... AHHH ... i swear ... i just dont know sometimes
OH YEAH and my g-ma likes to call me fat too ... YAY ... thats just what a girl my age needs to hear
like i dont already FUCKING know that ... what u want me to do stick my fingers in my ear and say LALALALALALALA ... im not listening
what if ur mom went around tellin everybody that u were an alcoholic and pregnant and tells u to stay the hell away from ur 2 younger siblings that U raised .... and ur whole family forces u to see this bitch at least twice a year ... they're all onmy side ...but no one will say anything to her ... and they would be FURIOUS if i was to be SO imature as to give up my right to xmas w/ my family b/c that rotten bitch would be there??? ... who am i supposed to talk to about that ....and everytime its mentioned in front of my g-ma she's like ... she didnt really say that ... u know she never hit u ... u know she didnt mean it ... she didnt beat u bad enough for u to go to the police ................. i dont know i think it was the photo of the hand print on my neck that just HAD to have been photo shopped on there ... AHHHHHHHHH .... and ppl wonder why i am the way i am ... bc my family is all pshychotics
OK so thanx to mr daniford for having ^^^ that conversation w/ me!!!
Well on a brighter note my sister ... well sarigate sister got engaged today ... AWESOME....ask me about it b/c it was REALLY cool ... i dont feel like typing it again.
hopefully u gathered what makes me soooo pissy from the message above ... but anyway ... IM NOT IN A GOOD MOOD ANYMORE!!! ..... i was all happy and giddy and cheerful ... shoulda known it wasnt gonna last.
u know its bad when the ppl u CHOOSE to be around are more like family than ur family is!!!! ... dont get me wrong i love them dearly (most of them anyway) but those idiots ... i cant freakin deal with them .. im tellin u ... im gonna get the fuck up outa here ... SOON. then i wont have to worry w/ this crap.
my g-ma goes off and starts crying b/c i hurt her feelings ... what about my god dang feelings woman!! IM NOT A FUCKIN KID ...UGH ... ok but seriously she dont ask nobody else to do the stuff she asks me to ... its not like i make more stuff for her to do .. i dont leave messes for her to pick up ... i keep to myself and VISIT ... b/c i dont call it HOME ... u know why ... b/c ur effin pshycho and u drive me crazy.
well MERRY CHRISTMAS to all and to all a GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!
other than that ... it was MAGICAL!!!!!!
and then she's like i would think u would call this home .... WTF if im gonna call it HOME ... i better not be gettin kicked outa myown god dang room everytime i come over here .... WHICH I DO ... and if i lived here when i went off to college .... u wouldnt have told me to take EVERYTHING with me so that u can fix ur house the way u want it ... thats fuckin bull shit
and she goes off and starts crying ... UGH ... I SAID IT NICELY and used NO curse words ... which that alone is a big step ... she just wont stop .... i mean ... i was 3 steps from just sayin fuck it and goin to tuscaloosa ... im not 12 and they refuse to treat me like im grown
I pay ALL my bills and live alone ... im obviously not starving .... and i've paid back EVERYTHING ive EVER borrowed from anyone .... so what else should i do to keep from being called a child ... I MEAN REALLY ... and where the hell am i supposed to call home ... when i have nowhere to sleep ... and i get sent to the couch everytime i stay there
i mean honestly ... i feel like i have no home!!! .... and i dont even think they realize that ... this is like when i was sick and just wanted to say I WANNA go home ... but i cant b/c i have nowhere to call home ... OMG this sux
and there really is no one for me to talk about this to ... b/c everyone i know is all about going home and stuff and dont understand anything that goes on ... AHHH ... i swear ... i just dont know sometimes
OH YEAH and my g-ma likes to call me fat too ... YAY ... thats just what a girl my age needs to hear
like i dont already FUCKING know that ... what u want me to do stick my fingers in my ear and say LALALALALALALA ... im not listening
what if ur mom went around tellin everybody that u were an alcoholic and pregnant and tells u to stay the hell away from ur 2 younger siblings that U raised .... and ur whole family forces u to see this bitch at least twice a year ... they're all onmy side ...but no one will say anything to her ... and they would be FURIOUS if i was to be SO imature as to give up my right to xmas w/ my family b/c that rotten bitch would be there??? ... who am i supposed to talk to about that ....and everytime its mentioned in front of my g-ma she's like ... she didnt really say that ... u know she never hit u ... u know she didnt mean it ... she didnt beat u bad enough for u to go to the police ................. i dont know i think it was the photo of the hand print on my neck that just HAD to have been photo shopped on there ... AHHHHHHHHH .... and ppl wonder why i am the way i am ... bc my family is all pshychotics
OK so thanx to mr daniford for having ^^^ that conversation w/ me!!!
Well on a brighter note my sister ... well sarigate sister got engaged today ... AWESOME....ask me about it b/c it was REALLY cool ... i dont feel like typing it again.
hopefully u gathered what makes me soooo pissy from the message above ... but anyway ... IM NOT IN A GOOD MOOD ANYMORE!!! ..... i was all happy and giddy and cheerful ... shoulda known it wasnt gonna last.
u know its bad when the ppl u CHOOSE to be around are more like family than ur family is!!!! ... dont get me wrong i love them dearly (most of them anyway) but those idiots ... i cant freakin deal with them .. im tellin u ... im gonna get the fuck up outa here ... SOON. then i wont have to worry w/ this crap.
my g-ma goes off and starts crying b/c i hurt her feelings ... what about my god dang feelings woman!! IM NOT A FUCKIN KID ...UGH ... ok but seriously she dont ask nobody else to do the stuff she asks me to ... its not like i make more stuff for her to do .. i dont leave messes for her to pick up ... i keep to myself and VISIT ... b/c i dont call it HOME ... u know why ... b/c ur effin pshycho and u drive me crazy.
well MERRY CHRISTMAS to all and to all a GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!
other than that ... it was MAGICAL!!!!!!