Sigh...
Well it was an interesting weekend. Friday night I saw Harry Potter, and it was really good. It didn't really fulfill my expectations, but I don't think it ever really could have unless it was about 10 hours long, because they just had to leave too much out. Oh well. Saturday, of course, was our biggest football game of the year, and we pretty much embarrassed ourselves. I won't go into all my feelings about it, I've talked about it too much already this weekend, but yeah, it pretty much sucked. Last night, we went to a bar in Mississippi, which was WAY fun, they played some really cool music, and it was fun just to hang out. I didn't really do anything today, just kind of sat around...I put up my Christmas tree, which is pretty cool I guess, I'm excited for the holidays.
Anyway...sometimes I wish people would take me more seriously. I love my friends, they're awesome, but sometimes I feel like I'm sort of the "accessory friend" that people like to be around, I'm not offensive to anyone, and people are happy with or without me there. I want to be that person that people WANT to be around, and I just want to be taken seriously. I want people to think they can come to me with their problems and that I'll listen, I want to hear about and participate in people's lives, and I just want people to let me love them. I feel like I have all this love to give, and I try and try to give it, but it's just sometimes tossed aside like it isn't really appreciated or needed. I mean, I know my friends love me, but it just sometimes feels like if I weren't there, it wouldn't really matter either. Ugh, I'm not trying to throw a pity party for myself and make people feel sorry for me, but this is just how I feel sometimes. I just want to feel appreciated...does that make me sound needy? Because that's not what I want...I just want to be able to love people with the potential I feel I have. Anyway, sorry for the rambling and the mushiness...that's just the mood I'm in. Later...
Anyway...sometimes I wish people would take me more seriously. I love my friends, they're awesome, but sometimes I feel like I'm sort of the "accessory friend" that people like to be around, I'm not offensive to anyone, and people are happy with or without me there. I want to be that person that people WANT to be around, and I just want to be taken seriously. I want people to think they can come to me with their problems and that I'll listen, I want to hear about and participate in people's lives, and I just want people to let me love them. I feel like I have all this love to give, and I try and try to give it, but it's just sometimes tossed aside like it isn't really appreciated or needed. I mean, I know my friends love me, but it just sometimes feels like if I weren't there, it wouldn't really matter either. Ugh, I'm not trying to throw a pity party for myself and make people feel sorry for me, but this is just how I feel sometimes. I just want to feel appreciated...does that make me sound needy? Because that's not what I want...I just want to be able to love people with the potential I feel I have. Anyway, sorry for the rambling and the mushiness...that's just the mood I'm in. Later...