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hey everyone.. gosh today has been the worst day ever!!
-i havent talked to Jared today and i didnt get to talk to him 2 minutes last night.. hes not on, i think hes at work.. but i didnt even get to tell him i loved him last night..
-people at kingwood really piss me off.. really just 3 people in particular.. its like they know that they are hurting me and they dont care.. and i mean i havent even done anything.. its not my fault! but whatever.. guess that shows how much they ever cared to begin with!
-my grades are not that good.. i mean there not bad.. but i know that i could do better.. and thats totally stressing me out.. cuz i feel like im not good enough for my parents.. they are expecting me to be like perfect.. but i cant do that.. i cant be perfect.. i cant live up to what they want me to be i just cant.. which leads me to the next thing..
-i dont know what to do about my family anymore! i cant deal with this.. its like one day my dad is so pissed off and he tells me im not goon enough and all this and then they next hes like.. i didnt mean it like that.. im just worried about you and all this other stuff.. and i dont know.. im just really confused about alot of stuff there
-and then gunner just like asked me out.. i didnt really answer him i mean hes sweet and everything but i dont know and then theres.. yeah so i just dont know how to tell him no.. cuz i dont wanna hurt him but i dont know..
-somethings wrong with me.. im turning into someone that i hate.. its like i cant do anything right anymore.. i feel like everythings my fault.. but i just.. i dont know everthings just so confusing.. and messed up.. nothing is right.. nothing is how it should be.. i just want everything to be normal.. like it used to be..
-theres some people that.. i dont know i just cant seem to get along with now.. and thats not my fault.. i dont know what im supposed to do anymore.. its like i havent done anything and it feels like theres something i could do.. but i dont know what it is.. even though i know that theres not.. cuz i havent dont anything to begin with
-im really worried about my grandfather.. he had a stroke like on tuesday and he wouldnt let anyone take him to the hospital or the doctors so my grandmother made him an appointment on like friday and so yeah... i dont think we know anything yet.. but yeah im really worried about him..
well i think thats all that i want to write about now.. thinking about all of this is like really making me upset and so im just gonna stop
-Jordin
-i havent talked to Jared today and i didnt get to talk to him 2 minutes last night.. hes not on, i think hes at work.. but i didnt even get to tell him i loved him last night..
-people at kingwood really piss me off.. really just 3 people in particular.. its like they know that they are hurting me and they dont care.. and i mean i havent even done anything.. its not my fault! but whatever.. guess that shows how much they ever cared to begin with!
-my grades are not that good.. i mean there not bad.. but i know that i could do better.. and thats totally stressing me out.. cuz i feel like im not good enough for my parents.. they are expecting me to be like perfect.. but i cant do that.. i cant be perfect.. i cant live up to what they want me to be i just cant.. which leads me to the next thing..
-i dont know what to do about my family anymore! i cant deal with this.. its like one day my dad is so pissed off and he tells me im not goon enough and all this and then they next hes like.. i didnt mean it like that.. im just worried about you and all this other stuff.. and i dont know.. im just really confused about alot of stuff there
-and then gunner just like asked me out.. i didnt really answer him i mean hes sweet and everything but i dont know and then theres.. yeah so i just dont know how to tell him no.. cuz i dont wanna hurt him but i dont know..
-somethings wrong with me.. im turning into someone that i hate.. its like i cant do anything right anymore.. i feel like everythings my fault.. but i just.. i dont know everthings just so confusing.. and messed up.. nothing is right.. nothing is how it should be.. i just want everything to be normal.. like it used to be..
-theres some people that.. i dont know i just cant seem to get along with now.. and thats not my fault.. i dont know what im supposed to do anymore.. its like i havent done anything and it feels like theres something i could do.. but i dont know what it is.. even though i know that theres not.. cuz i havent dont anything to begin with
-im really worried about my grandfather.. he had a stroke like on tuesday and he wouldnt let anyone take him to the hospital or the doctors so my grandmother made him an appointment on like friday and so yeah... i dont think we know anything yet.. but yeah im really worried about him..
well i think thats all that i want to write about now.. thinking about all of this is like really making me upset and so im just gonna stop
-Jordin