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ok sry i havent updated..But i have been busy!!...You know everyones "love" life is going smoothly but myne..!..I mean guys for some reason dont wanna "hurt" me...soo they say i dont want a girlfriend right now or we are just friends...I know I know it might be true and i know i have this kinda thing on my journal 2,315,341 times but u know...dont read it if u dont wanna know about it!!..Tina is back in the swing of things again and Faith has Justin and im left with noone!!...and to tell you the HONEST to god truth im not fully over Taylor I wish i was but when he came over last tuesday and i saw him and his smile I kinda fell in again..!..I went to Faith's house yesterday after school and Justin rode home with us and iono it was akward being there with her and justin normally it is just me and her and we always goof off and have good time.. this time it was EXTREMELY different..Faith and Justin would hold each other and i would be like why couldnt a guy like me for me?...I mean NO guy ever cares about the REAL me all they see is my FAT and I dont wanna change myself for a guy...you shouldnt stoop to that low of a level..I really would love for a guy to walk up and ask me out...for the first time in 2 1/2 years that would happen!!...I mean u see all these cute couples at dances and school and you know..NO guy would ever prolly be seen with me in the halls...I talk to them yeh but we are ONLY friends...I mean??...If a guy really got to know me then he would love me but u know they for somereason dont wanna take time and fine the REAL me!!...I have more to me then FAT...REALLY please i mean why are guys soo IGNORANT and STUPID...I swear i may never be married and NEVER have anyone love me...Im going to be stuck doubling with Faith and Justin ; Tina and Whoever she gets...i'll always be alone...