this is a long entry for someone with lots to think about

[bama_muaddib]

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Wow! The commonalities accumulate!

[privatepraxis]

Drew, I have struggled with similar issues throughout my twenties and (now) thirties. I realized toward the end of my first attempt at college that it just wasn't working. I had no clue what I wanted or needed to do and it seemed foolhardy to "keep at it" when I was no longer clear on what "it" was. I finally quit fighting the urge to stay in bed and cry all day and dropped out at 20. I moved to NY because I had this map of the city that I pulled out of a National Geographic and I looked at it all the time and dreamed about what it would mean to live in a city that has also made room for the lost and striving. Seven years later I felt more like myself and more sure of what I wanted from an academic experience. I re-enrolled and had a surprising, fulfilling time learning to move past my own self-imposed limits. My second stab at college was all about the joy of learning for learning's sake and figuring out how to balance school, career and a marriage. It was challenging, but I wouldn't have had it any other way. Ultimately, I think life is all about small adjustments and big, bold moves. The trick is learning to discern which is necessary when. Being human is a bitch, isn't it? We're all so fragile and complex and precious. I wish you luck with the hard work of self-reflection and brave commitment and each morning when I smear my apple slices with "our" peanut butter I will send you all my positive energy and whatever good karma I've managed to amass.

Re: Wow! The commonalities accumulate!

[bama_muaddib]

thanks for the warm-fuzziness. even the beachfront picture in your user icon suggests to me that you've come a long way and have a lot to smile about because of it.

as much karma as i've got to give back at you (from the "tantric drew" side of me) and may the road rise to meet you.

cheers,

drew