:(
My sister just called to tell me
That my Grandpa
The one who's been in the hospital for over 2 months
Is in intensive care
Due to congestive heart failure
He's lost both his legs
Had a failed liver
Had over four heart attacks in his life time
One minor heart attack recently
I'm really scared
To lose someone
To lose family
I love you all
Please take care of yourselves
suz
edit:// He died today @ 4:30.
My sisters are hysterical.
I'm keeping it together for them...
For him.
My mom called to see if I was okay...
I was talking all calm like
"Yes Mom... I'm fine... I'm helping Julie and Nereida"
And she was like "wow... you're my daughter alright!"
I want my mom here.
She deals with stuff like I do.
I love my mommy.
And I don't care who knows.
R.I.P. Grandpa
I love you always.
I remember once you told me
Not to tell anyone
But I was your favorite grandchild
I didn't know why you said it
But I think I understand now
That you knew I'd be something amazing
I'll be amazing for you
Thank you for everything strong you've given me
Thank you for my last name
Thank you for all these times you've held this family together
I promise to be just as strong, just as easily composed
To oversee but not overlook
To give out my hand to those who need it most
I can feel you smiling
You're loved
I'm sitting here alone in my room crying
I don't like the comfort... the pity...
I'll cry at the funeral though
Infront of everyone
I won't panic though
I accept this as inevitable
I accept that he was old
And suffered enough... way too much
Goodbye Grandpa Stanley