"today is such a great day, NOTHING could ruin my day"
isnt it funny how the best days can sooooo easliy turn into the worst days. getting bitten by a million bugs right when all my bites from the last time are going away sucked. oh yea, so did locking my keys in my car especially when i thought my parents had the spare when really my sister did. cuz there was no way for anyone to get my spare, so my parents had to come and pop the lock with those metal guys. it was so shitty. my back is in more pain than it was when i couldnt do ne thing other than lay on the couch. i've seen my dr 3 times in the past week and it still hurts sooo bad.
being nosey never got me ne where, but every now and then i am, and then i remember how much it sucks when i do shit like that. but i think it was for once actually more of a good thing than a bad thing. i really dont care what ne one has to say about this situation, the select few know the real story, and i was greatly thinking about coming home for a little while ne ways. in fact for the past week i've come really close to doing it. things need to be fixed with the fam, and this is forcing me to fix it. and if anyone wants to think that it was for different reasons, and make me look like a huge bitch, thats fine. brandyn knows that i wouldnt fuck him over like that, and the fact that any of my "friends" would think that im that big of a dirt bag says something about our friendship. hopefully everyone can get something positive out of this, i learned not to jump to conclusions, and that no matter what people will always be trying to force me into doing things that they think is best.
being home is really good. sleeping naked in my own bed kicked ass, it would have been better if my back didnt hurt, but it was still awesome. and no matter what gets fixed i'm still gonna dislike living here for the most part, so it will motivate me to go out, grow up, and get the hell out of buffalo. and honestly i havent liked the way that a large amount of my friendships were heading, so im kinda glad that i dont have to see all those people everyday. some of them i definatly still wanna hang out with and be close to, others i wouldnt really mind if i never saw them again.
new topic: my sister is gonna be moved out of her apartment by the end of the week. this makes me sad. im happy that she's gonna live with greg russ, but its all the way out in tonawanda, and i have a feeling im gonna be seeing much of her ne more. also, im gonna miss derek lipp. ill still go party over there with him, but i have a feeling my sister wont be a fan of that, so i prolly wont do it much as i want to.
being nosey never got me ne where, but every now and then i am, and then i remember how much it sucks when i do shit like that. but i think it was for once actually more of a good thing than a bad thing. i really dont care what ne one has to say about this situation, the select few know the real story, and i was greatly thinking about coming home for a little while ne ways. in fact for the past week i've come really close to doing it. things need to be fixed with the fam, and this is forcing me to fix it. and if anyone wants to think that it was for different reasons, and make me look like a huge bitch, thats fine. brandyn knows that i wouldnt fuck him over like that, and the fact that any of my "friends" would think that im that big of a dirt bag says something about our friendship. hopefully everyone can get something positive out of this, i learned not to jump to conclusions, and that no matter what people will always be trying to force me into doing things that they think is best.
being home is really good. sleeping naked in my own bed kicked ass, it would have been better if my back didnt hurt, but it was still awesome. and no matter what gets fixed i'm still gonna dislike living here for the most part, so it will motivate me to go out, grow up, and get the hell out of buffalo. and honestly i havent liked the way that a large amount of my friendships were heading, so im kinda glad that i dont have to see all those people everyday. some of them i definatly still wanna hang out with and be close to, others i wouldnt really mind if i never saw them again.
new topic: my sister is gonna be moved out of her apartment by the end of the week. this makes me sad. im happy that she's gonna live with greg russ, but its all the way out in tonawanda, and i have a feeling im gonna be seeing much of her ne more. also, im gonna miss derek lipp. ill still go party over there with him, but i have a feeling my sister wont be a fan of that, so i prolly wont do it much as i want to.