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I picked up my guitar tonight. First time in a while. I have to get better at practicing more often because my callouses went away. And now my fingers hurt. But it's a good kind of hurt, you know?
So anyway, I picked up my guitar. No one was around, it's 2 in the morning, and my roomates are both gone for a while. Victoria's gone for the weekend and Eliza's...partying maybe. And I'm here. And I play.
I don't like playing in front of people, I'm too self conscious. You must think, hah, a theatre kid that's self-conscious? A music kid that's self-conscious? Come on now..but it's true. There are things I can do in front of hundreds of people, and there are things I can hardly do in front of three. One of them is strip, the other is playing the guitar.
It's because I think I'm bad. I am bad. By myself I'm pretty decent, I don't mess up too much, my guitar is more or less in tune, and my songs are...safe. Add people into the equation and suddenly my chords become basic, my rhythms simple and repeditive, my guitar a little flat sounding.
I guess that's how it is in life, you know? If you stand in front of a mirror by yourself, just you and your relfection, you're pretty bearable. Sure your hair is a litle...eh, and one eye may squint a little more than another, but all in all you're okay. And then you step away from the mirror and into a crowd and suddenly....you suck.
(I removed this part when I imported it to my facebook, as it was about someone who could possibly read this..oops.)
The moral of this story? Guys suck. And it's hard to play your guitar when it's hellishly out of tune.
So anyway, I picked up my guitar. No one was around, it's 2 in the morning, and my roomates are both gone for a while. Victoria's gone for the weekend and Eliza's...partying maybe. And I'm here. And I play.
I don't like playing in front of people, I'm too self conscious. You must think, hah, a theatre kid that's self-conscious? A music kid that's self-conscious? Come on now..but it's true. There are things I can do in front of hundreds of people, and there are things I can hardly do in front of three. One of them is strip, the other is playing the guitar.
It's because I think I'm bad. I am bad. By myself I'm pretty decent, I don't mess up too much, my guitar is more or less in tune, and my songs are...safe. Add people into the equation and suddenly my chords become basic, my rhythms simple and repeditive, my guitar a little flat sounding.
I guess that's how it is in life, you know? If you stand in front of a mirror by yourself, just you and your relfection, you're pretty bearable. Sure your hair is a litle...eh, and one eye may squint a little more than another, but all in all you're okay. And then you step away from the mirror and into a crowd and suddenly....you suck.
(I removed this part when I imported it to my facebook, as it was about someone who could possibly read this..oops.)
The moral of this story? Guys suck. And it's hard to play your guitar when it's hellishly out of tune.