Flow or Fight
Hmmm... another crossroads. I promised myself action, ride the lightning, and all that jazz. But now I am beginning to wonder if taking action might cause more hurt than help at the moment. Perhaps letting myself be carried by the current of events might actually serve better, BUT, this may be my cowardice acting up again. It's just so much easier and less frightening to wait and mope, than to try and fail. Maybe a middle ground can be found, moderate action from a stance of caution.
Bleh. I read my own shit and am disgusted! Am I really this much of a philosophical navelgazer!? ;)
Lessee, so besides the introspective conundrums...
I am excited about Santa! It seems like a great cast and a great opportunity to get to know some Maverick personalities that I have wanted to get friendly with, but have yet to have a good opportunity. I am scared for quick changes, though! I have to go from Human 50s Reporter to Martian Elder in a little over a couple minutes!
Other news has excited me as well, however I shall keep the deets to myself. It's unfortunately, complicated, and I'm hoping that the road is far more complex than the result.
I have had a strange series of long heart felt talks with some gorgeous ladies recently, far more than I can ever remember having in such a short period. I even was up till 5:45 am in the morning, attempting to burn off excess intoxication, chatting about love & sex with a beautiful actress. However, nothing really happening yet on the lady front. I have crushes, one a bit more notable than others, but I am completely unsure as to what to do about any of them. Women have it easy: wait, get approached, accept or deny. Men have to handle the most frightening aspects, and yet, women get the multiple orgasms. Not too fair! ;)
Money is an issue. Subbing has been slow this week. I mean, I'm making enough to live on, easy, but I have a amazing benefactor that I need to compensate for his kindness. It will happen, but not as fast as I'm sure he or I would like. :(
Well, I'm off to give the folks some tech help and rehearse for Santa! Talk to you amazing 2 people who read my blog soon! ;)
Bleh. I read my own shit and am disgusted! Am I really this much of a philosophical navelgazer!? ;)
Lessee, so besides the introspective conundrums...
I am excited about Santa! It seems like a great cast and a great opportunity to get to know some Maverick personalities that I have wanted to get friendly with, but have yet to have a good opportunity. I am scared for quick changes, though! I have to go from Human 50s Reporter to Martian Elder in a little over a couple minutes!
Other news has excited me as well, however I shall keep the deets to myself. It's unfortunately, complicated, and I'm hoping that the road is far more complex than the result.
I have had a strange series of long heart felt talks with some gorgeous ladies recently, far more than I can ever remember having in such a short period. I even was up till 5:45 am in the morning, attempting to burn off excess intoxication, chatting about love & sex with a beautiful actress. However, nothing really happening yet on the lady front. I have crushes, one a bit more notable than others, but I am completely unsure as to what to do about any of them. Women have it easy: wait, get approached, accept or deny. Men have to handle the most frightening aspects, and yet, women get the multiple orgasms. Not too fair! ;)
Money is an issue. Subbing has been slow this week. I mean, I'm making enough to live on, easy, but I have a amazing benefactor that I need to compensate for his kindness. It will happen, but not as fast as I'm sure he or I would like. :(
Well, I'm off to give the folks some tech help and rehearse for Santa! Talk to you amazing 2 people who read my blog soon! ;)