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So. I kind of acquired a girlfriend over the weekend. ^_^
Suddenly all the angsting and whinging seems even sillier than before. Before it seemed silly, but I couldn't help but feel it, to some degree... now it looks silly and really untrusting. I've always said-- with varying degrees of truly believing it-- that I believed God had someone special in mind for me.
Well, I finally quit peering out at the horizon, waiting for this mythical Special Someone to arrive into my life, and noticed an absolutely incredible person right here already in my life. :) And, as it turns out, she was pretty much waiting for me to do so... in fact was starting to wonder if I would ever feel that way. :P
Now. I know-- from stories, other people, my own parents-- this is not a poof! all is well. This is going to take some work, and especially a lot of change (for the better!!!!) on my part. And this weird feeling (and it is incredibly weird!) will start to dissipate. Most importantly, we know a relationship is a living thing on its own, and it will take a lot of care and attention to keep it floating. It'll try to capsize if we just leave it be.
But right now... yeah, still just reeling. :D
And speaking of change for the better... might do well to start not being awake at 3 in the a.m. :P
Suddenly all the angsting and whinging seems even sillier than before. Before it seemed silly, but I couldn't help but feel it, to some degree... now it looks silly and really untrusting. I've always said-- with varying degrees of truly believing it-- that I believed God had someone special in mind for me.
Well, I finally quit peering out at the horizon, waiting for this mythical Special Someone to arrive into my life, and noticed an absolutely incredible person right here already in my life. :) And, as it turns out, she was pretty much waiting for me to do so... in fact was starting to wonder if I would ever feel that way. :P
Now. I know-- from stories, other people, my own parents-- this is not a poof! all is well. This is going to take some work, and especially a lot of change (for the better!!!!) on my part. And this weird feeling (and it is incredibly weird!) will start to dissipate. Most importantly, we know a relationship is a living thing on its own, and it will take a lot of care and attention to keep it floating. It'll try to capsize if we just leave it be.
But right now... yeah, still just reeling. :D
And speaking of change for the better... might do well to start not being awake at 3 in the a.m. :P