*yawn*
Im in a rather blah mood today. I just got up and i feel like i got run over by a truck. arrrrrrrrg
On a lighter note, I AM DONE WITH ALL THE CLASSES I WILL EVER TAKE AT BALL STATE! WOOHOO! I can't believe its over. Wow...8 LONG years after i start, i finished my last final yesterday. Isnt that exciting? :) Im not done with college, as i still have my internship to do starting in January. But hell...that doesnt require any exams or research projects that will keep me up to all hours of the night.
This is a rather tremendous acheivement for me, especially if you know what ive been through to finish college. FOr those of you who dont yet know, let me fill you in:
I graduated from Mississinewa High School in Gas City, Indiana in 1995. I immediately came to Ball State University the following Fall. I started out as a Nursing major becuase I knew i wanted to help people. It wasnt until many years later that i realized that i was wanting to help people, but not with medicine. I struggled through my first semester, only to be put on academic probation. I went to see my advisor, and she recommeneded (rather smugly) that i change to somthing that i enjoyed in high school: journalism. BIG MISTAKE. What kind of a counselor just shoos you off into somthing without exploring what made me come to BSU in the first place?
In any event, i went through the next two and a half years bouncing on and off probation, only to be expelled in May of 1998 for my grades. Sullen, i moved to Indianapolis to start a life in the real world until such time as i was ready and able to come back. I spent the next three years as a clerk at Meijer, working temp jobs, a bartender, and even an account executive making $35,000/year. Somthing just didnt feel right. I wasnt where i was supposed to be...so after many failed attempts at making a career, i decided to come back. This wasnt until after i had lost electricity in my rathole apartment many times, ate rice and water everyday for weeks at a time (yes im serious!), stole from grocery stores to be able to eat (pitiful huh? some steal to live, and not for fun WINNONA! sp?), and various times of stealing toilet paper from the gas station across the street becuase i simply didnt have the money to wipe my own ass.
I came back with a fresh mind, and a willingness to succeed like i had never had before. I came back with a thought that i wanted to help people, and put myself into a life of service. It was then that i realized that Psychology was better suited for me than was Journalism. I went to see my new advisor and he made me realize that Psychology wasnt my cup of tea, but that I should go see Judi Egbert in the Social Work Department. What a day that would end up being. I had known Judi for many years through my dealings as a past president of the GLBT group. Judi opened my eyes to a whole new world that I had never thoguht of before. Social Workers werent just baby snatchers....they actually have a hand in helping millions of Americans to better their lives and help in healing.
To make a long story short, i have spend the last 3 years here at BSU making a new life formyself. Not only did i meet the great love of my life (who just so happened to not love me in the same way...go friggin figure), but my grades SOARED. I was VERY close to Dean's list every semester back. (some semesters were only off by ONE HALF of a letter grade) Needless to say I was elated, but ive still had to work my ass off to get here.
I have been working with my target population now for more than 2 1/2 years, at the Youth Opportunity Center here in Muncie. I really truly love my job!! Ive finnaly found the career that i was meant to be a part of.
IVE FINNALY MADE IT!
This accomplishment to me, is a culmination of many years of struggling and hardships...and i can honestly say that "I HAVE ARRIVED!"
more to come soon.... :)
On a lighter note, I AM DONE WITH ALL THE CLASSES I WILL EVER TAKE AT BALL STATE! WOOHOO! I can't believe its over. Wow...8 LONG years after i start, i finished my last final yesterday. Isnt that exciting? :) Im not done with college, as i still have my internship to do starting in January. But hell...that doesnt require any exams or research projects that will keep me up to all hours of the night.
This is a rather tremendous acheivement for me, especially if you know what ive been through to finish college. FOr those of you who dont yet know, let me fill you in:
I graduated from Mississinewa High School in Gas City, Indiana in 1995. I immediately came to Ball State University the following Fall. I started out as a Nursing major becuase I knew i wanted to help people. It wasnt until many years later that i realized that i was wanting to help people, but not with medicine. I struggled through my first semester, only to be put on academic probation. I went to see my advisor, and she recommeneded (rather smugly) that i change to somthing that i enjoyed in high school: journalism. BIG MISTAKE. What kind of a counselor just shoos you off into somthing without exploring what made me come to BSU in the first place?
In any event, i went through the next two and a half years bouncing on and off probation, only to be expelled in May of 1998 for my grades. Sullen, i moved to Indianapolis to start a life in the real world until such time as i was ready and able to come back. I spent the next three years as a clerk at Meijer, working temp jobs, a bartender, and even an account executive making $35,000/year. Somthing just didnt feel right. I wasnt where i was supposed to be...so after many failed attempts at making a career, i decided to come back. This wasnt until after i had lost electricity in my rathole apartment many times, ate rice and water everyday for weeks at a time (yes im serious!), stole from grocery stores to be able to eat (pitiful huh? some steal to live, and not for fun WINNONA! sp?), and various times of stealing toilet paper from the gas station across the street becuase i simply didnt have the money to wipe my own ass.
I came back with a fresh mind, and a willingness to succeed like i had never had before. I came back with a thought that i wanted to help people, and put myself into a life of service. It was then that i realized that Psychology was better suited for me than was Journalism. I went to see my new advisor and he made me realize that Psychology wasnt my cup of tea, but that I should go see Judi Egbert in the Social Work Department. What a day that would end up being. I had known Judi for many years through my dealings as a past president of the GLBT group. Judi opened my eyes to a whole new world that I had never thoguht of before. Social Workers werent just baby snatchers....they actually have a hand in helping millions of Americans to better their lives and help in healing.
To make a long story short, i have spend the last 3 years here at BSU making a new life formyself. Not only did i meet the great love of my life (who just so happened to not love me in the same way...go friggin figure), but my grades SOARED. I was VERY close to Dean's list every semester back. (some semesters were only off by ONE HALF of a letter grade) Needless to say I was elated, but ive still had to work my ass off to get here.
I have been working with my target population now for more than 2 1/2 years, at the Youth Opportunity Center here in Muncie. I really truly love my job!! Ive finnaly found the career that i was meant to be a part of.
IVE FINNALY MADE IT!
This accomplishment to me, is a culmination of many years of struggling and hardships...and i can honestly say that "I HAVE ARRIVED!"
more to come soon.... :)