...after reading an FAQ on the subject, I think this is an LJ for all Ballpointians.
To be perfectly honest here, I wasn't really sure what to expect myself. I mean, that's half the fun, at least in my mind, of meeting people you know from the net face to face. It's why I always try to "bare brain" on the net when I talk to people. I'd rather not mislead anyone into thinking they're gonna meet someone they're not. In real life, yeah, I downplay quite a few aspects of my personality. I think to a certain respect, we all do. After all, when you see someone face to face, there're so many opportunities for people to misread certain cues that they can get the wrong opinion really fast. I'm pretty sure this is why even to this day I still get people messing with me on the street form appearance alone. I'm a scrawny lil' "fox", for all intents and purposes, and I tend to walk on the balls of my feet...kinda like i'm wearing heels. This puts a swish into my walk. Which makes simple minded creatures think "fag."
The truth of the matter is that I was born three months early, so the tendons in my ankles never did grow in quite all the way. I have to concentrate or wear heavy boots to walk normally. So, as part of a defense mechanism, when I'm around strangers who're jerks, I'll get catty if they're just verbally abusive, and violent if they aren't. When I'm around friendlies, then I'm either totally normal, or totally flaming, even though I'm not gay. I just believe that life should be lived openly, loudly, and vibrantly. Enjoy it, y'know? But, when you get labeled as something your whole life, from as far back as kindergarten, you're gonna pick up on the cues subconsciously, and run with them.
But I digress...
All that being said, I enjoyed all of your company. There's a reason I've been doing customer service for as long as I have been. I may hate a lot of aspects of the job, but the part I like best is getting to meet people and talk with them. I genuinely enjoy the company of others, and am a very social creature, even if I am scared to DEATH to go out and meet new people. That's what made this good to me, I at least knew to an extent what I was getting into, because I'd talked with all my guests before. I had some idea of what to expect...
Glad you had a good time, for the most part. I'll go look around for more party games to be better prepared for the next time I do this. Truth or dare should prolly be saved for more intimate gatherings, i do suppose.
To be perfectly honest here, I wasn't really sure what to expect myself. I mean, that's half the fun, at least in my mind, of meeting people you know from the net face to face. It's why I always try to "bare brain" on the net when I talk to people. I'd rather not mislead anyone into thinking they're gonna meet someone they're not. In real life, yeah, I downplay quite a few aspects of my personality. I think to a certain respect, we all do. After all, when you see someone face to face, there're so many opportunities for people to misread certain cues that they can get the wrong opinion really fast. I'm pretty sure this is why even to this day I still get people messing with me on the street form appearance alone. I'm a scrawny lil' "fox", for all intents and purposes, and I tend to walk on the balls of my feet...kinda like i'm wearing heels. This puts a swish into my walk. Which makes simple minded creatures think "fag."
The truth of the matter is that I was born three months early, so the tendons in my ankles never did grow in quite all the way. I have to concentrate or wear heavy boots to walk normally. So, as part of a defense mechanism, when I'm around strangers who're jerks, I'll get catty if they're just verbally abusive, and violent if they aren't. When I'm around friendlies, then I'm either totally normal, or totally flaming, even though I'm not gay. I just believe that life should be lived openly, loudly, and vibrantly. Enjoy it, y'know? But, when you get labeled as something your whole life, from as far back as kindergarten, you're gonna pick up on the cues subconsciously, and run with them.
But I digress...
All that being said, I enjoyed all of your company. There's a reason I've been doing customer service for as long as I have been. I may hate a lot of aspects of the job, but the part I like best is getting to meet people and talk with them. I genuinely enjoy the company of others, and am a very social creature, even if I am scared to DEATH to go out and meet new people. That's what made this good to me, I at least knew to an extent what I was getting into, because I'd talked with all my guests before. I had some idea of what to expect...
Glad you had a good time, for the most part. I'll go look around for more party games to be better prepared for the next time I do this. Truth or dare should prolly be saved for more intimate gatherings, i do suppose.
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