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[ballparkfrank]

I put on a strong face. For the most part, I act like things don't get to me. I try to not be a burden on others...hence my generally infrequent posting on my lj. I wish I could be a close friend to anyone that views me as a close friend of theirs. I can't. I don't think I'm strong enough to deal with certain things. I wish I could be void of emotional attachment like I pretend to be..like I used to be. I wish I had never learned what its like to open up. I wish I could just go outside and scream...anything. Or that I had someone I could talk to.

I'm sorry, but I don't know if I'm strong enough to keep doing this much longer. And I'm sorry for even posting this in the first place.