2 Da Twins..askin 4 my 2nd chance
hey u guys well. i still havent 4goten about the crazy memmory's we shared. Hope u havent eaither. it suks so bad to want a second chance so bad. n kno that ur the farthest thing from furgivness. i go to skool everyday not wanting to be there n i dont kno y. as bad as it sounds sometimes i wish i didnt give 3fucks about u guys. i wish i wus cold hearted n didnt care about the freindship we used to have. and the sad part about all of this is that all this pain i have is all caused by no1 else but ME. i wish i didnt hurt the way i do. i wish that i didnt look at u n have a such n overwelming emptyness inside. i wish i didnt have to pass by one of u guys n smile lyk if my world cuddnt be any better and the second u one of u left my pressence i wud feel so lost. lyk a pain so strong that it brings tears to my eyes sumtims. Lyk theres times where ill try so hard to aviod u guys n then theres times where all i want to do is just grab you and put u in my arms n just cry with you. sometimes susy ull see me cryin and ask me wats wrong n ill say nothing. n ull walk away not knowin that im cryin because things arent the way they used to be . i wonder all the time wat it is that i did in my life to deserve all this pain. constant questions run threw my head about the situation that i have put myself in. i dnt kno wat to do to fix anything i guess the only thing i can do is to just walk away from my problems. i kno that that is a sighn of weekness but when it comes to u guys i feel lyk a littlle lost kid. lyk if i wus dobbie n i did bad n all i want is a hug n a kiss n for everything to be okey again. but 4 sum reason i have a strong feelin that that will never happen. i mean y wud u guys come to me when u guys have a perfect lyf wit the new freinds u have n im jus a chik that made one to manny mistakes wit ppl that i cared about way to much.i never realized my mistakes until now n it suks dat its 2 late. so all i have to say is that i hope u guys have a nice life. n all i ask of u guys is that when u think of me think of the crazy moments weve shared. n all the laphes n great times. n dnt think about all the fights n wrong mistakes i made to come to all of theses cercumstances. im goin to leave to coral park when we come bak from winter break. it's really lykely. so u wont have to worry about acting lyk my friend anymore n then turning around n not caring. well u guys i g2g so hope will crash into eachother in the future.. till then i love u guys n ill never 4get you guys as long as i live. i will 4ever n always keep u close in my heart. Love ALways ur lil Dobbie.