working on new years day sucks.

[balletwish]

it seems that everyone is reflecting on their lives this past year.
a lot has changed from this time last year until now.
i fell in love.
i realized i have a problem with commitment.
i was scarred in a way that will never heal.
i turned 18.
i graduated shit school.
realized how truely fake most people are.
met a lot of people.
lost a lot of people.

it almost makes me sad.
thinking right now.
i wish things were the way they used to be.
so simple.
i miss natalie's and my late night walks.
i miss life a few years ago.
last night was so nastolgic.

in the upcoming year...
i want to establish real bonds.
i want to make a difference in something or to someone.
i want to be happy.
i want my family to be happy.
i want to work hard for what i want.
i want to travel.
i want to conqueor my fears.
..or at least work at it.
i want to move up in the world.

::today is the greatest day i've ever known, i can't wait for tomorrow..."