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I think I'm getting sick. There's been something going around and I think it's finally gotten to me. I'm getting the sore throat, the sniffles and this time around a weird dizziness. It's hard to explain but it just feels like I'm not stable, like I'm walking around on a boat that's swaying too much in the water. It's very weird.
In other news I should find out more details about my new job (such as pay, benefits, start date, etc.) tomorrow or Tuesday. I'm excited to get started. Scared as all get out but it is a much needed change. Tomorrow is also the day that I'm vowing to start my letter to the Grahams detailing why this situation has roally sucked and why I hate them for it. Of course, I'll be very professional when I write it but I'm not going to leave anything out.
I miss Kevin so much. I've thought about him constantly since I made up my mind not to talk to him. I think it's kind of pissed him off a little. He said whatever when he asked me if I was ever going to talk to him again but he gives me strange looks sometimes and I just get the feeling it bothers him. Well if it does, good. Now hopefully soon he'll realize that he passed up someone amazing who would love him with her whole heart and come crawling back. I felt so terrible on Friday because seriously, when Jeff and I were hanging out and "cuddling" on the couch, all I could think about was that I wished it was Kevin who was touching my back. I feel like I've lost a best friend (well duh, because I have...) and I've lost someone who made me feel sexy and amazingly beautiful and special. I miss that so much. It's one thing to know it yourself, but to have someone else recognize it and not be afraid to tell you so that just feels indescribable. I miss him so much......
In other news I should find out more details about my new job (such as pay, benefits, start date, etc.) tomorrow or Tuesday. I'm excited to get started. Scared as all get out but it is a much needed change. Tomorrow is also the day that I'm vowing to start my letter to the Grahams detailing why this situation has roally sucked and why I hate them for it. Of course, I'll be very professional when I write it but I'm not going to leave anything out.
I miss Kevin so much. I've thought about him constantly since I made up my mind not to talk to him. I think it's kind of pissed him off a little. He said whatever when he asked me if I was ever going to talk to him again but he gives me strange looks sometimes and I just get the feeling it bothers him. Well if it does, good. Now hopefully soon he'll realize that he passed up someone amazing who would love him with her whole heart and come crawling back. I felt so terrible on Friday because seriously, when Jeff and I were hanging out and "cuddling" on the couch, all I could think about was that I wished it was Kevin who was touching my back. I feel like I've lost a best friend (well duh, because I have...) and I've lost someone who made me feel sexy and amazingly beautiful and special. I miss that so much. It's one thing to know it yourself, but to have someone else recognize it and not be afraid to tell you so that just feels indescribable. I miss him so much......