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[balletkid]

So i decided that i should up-date, but what to say? I have so many thoughts running through my head, things i want to say, but will people listen? or is it even for me to say? James 1:9 say that we should be quick to listen and slow to speak, but darn it i feel like speeking, but what matters more in some aspects is do they want to listen? is it worth my time and my breath to say anything? or will they pass it off because they dont care what i say, only because its me. thats the problem with burning bridges as they call it. somehow you hurt the people you love most, or is it that you dont love them enough? i think its both. the people i want to help are those that would rather fall to their deaths than take MY hand, or atleast that's the impression i get from them. so where does this leave me? i feel like that commercial where that kid is drowning and the friend is on the dock, standing there, staring at his friend drowning yet doing nothing. So all i do then is pray, i hate it when i feel like its all i can do. And i press on, i read my word, i pray, and i let God influence me, mold me more into who he wants me to be, needs even, that way if the time ever comes that i can help those i want to i am ready, prepared and equiped to do so.

I miss a lot of people that ive met along the journies of my life, some i wonder if ill ever see again, and some i wonder if how we've grown while being apart from eachother will get in the way of us being together when we come together again.

To all who read this and to those that don't i love you, as truely, purely and wholey as i can, to those whom i have not seen in a while i miss you, we should get together for coffee or something.