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balletboy

Regret

Feb 26, 2005 17:32

Ever look back on a decision you mae and you can't figure out why you made it? No possible reason can come to your mind. No matter what, you figure that you really made a mistake. And on top of that, the decision was made so long ago that you can't do anything to change it. It's beyond the realm of what you can still fix; what you can still make ( Read more... )

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soccerstar2150 February 27 2005, 19:02:51 UTC

The only part of the situation I don't like is that I wish she had chosen you. Would've made this whole thing a lot easier for me.

Oh well, can't change the past :)

I'm Glad, Too balletboy February 28 2005, 02:24:54 UTC

Given the way she talked to the both of us individually, I'm glad she choose you. She said she wanted to find happiness, and it's with you. If it wasn't, she would have made a differrent choice. So like you said, this whole thing is easier because she decided on you.

shinigurai March 1 2005, 04:27:10 UTC

No offense man, but why don't you break up with her?

soccerstar2150 March 1 2005, 06:38:47 UTC

Because then she'd be hurt, and need someone to talk to... it'd leave her open to some perverted little ass-fuck like you. :)

Wrong Intent balletboy March 1 2005, 18:30:42 UTC

In reality, Perkins knows more than you give him credit for. Just ask Justine. Something like "God no. I could never treat you right" were his exact words to her. He knows his boundries for good relationships.
And staying with someone because you don't want to hurt them is insane. That's the reason things got so fucked between the three of us, anyway. She was unhappy with you but didn't want to hurt your feelings. So don't stay in the relationship because you don't want to break the other person; stay in it because it makes you happy and content. Without happiness, what's the point?

Re: Wrong Intent balletboy March 1 2005, 19:25:53 UTC

And if you don't believe Perkins said that, why don't you read some more of Justine's instant messenger conversations.

Re: Wrong Intent soccerstar2150 March 1 2005, 22:43:09 UTC

Never said I wasn't happy :) I'm very happy. Happier than I was before it happened.

But that doesn't mean that not wanting to hurt her isn't a legitimate reason. I'm allowed to have more than one reason for being with someone. When it comes to Perkin's case, that's the reason that comes to mind.

And I do believe he said that. I'm not worried about any conversations that those two may have had. I have no worries at all about perkins, if she'd stoop that low then she's not the person I think she is :)

Re: Wrong Intent shinigurai March 2 2005, 03:17:29 UTC

You're free to think what you want about me, but I'd just like to point out that you don't really know me at all.

Re: Wrong Intent soccerstar2150 March 2 2005, 06:56:26 UTC

I don't know you, that's true. I know what I've heard. As unreliable as second-hand information can be, I tend to trust it when it's a consistant picture from 3 sources. Dave, Matt, and Justine can't all be wrong about you can they? Or is it out of line to tell you what people say about you behind your back? About how when Dave's in town we try to postpone you finding out as long as we can so that he doesn't get bothered by you until he wants to. Maybe that's out of line...maybe you don't believe me...either way, "you're free to think what you want about me."

If you don't believe me, why don't you call up Dave and ask...or ask Matt. Maybe he'll be more honest with you than he was with me :)

Hmmmm ban15 March 2 2005, 07:34:32 UTC

Ouch,you guys are getting down right nasty, in the most civil manners I've heard in a long time. That's aspiring. However, what the crap are you even talking about?

Trevor, I love you, you always make me smile, even when you're being the mean you.

So how about everyone stop talking about how super everything is, and we'll all believe that whatever either of you say is true, and then we won't have a record high of 20 comments on Matt's journal. That would just make me jealous. *wink*

Re: Hmmmm soccerstar2150 March 2 2005, 08:25:18 UTC

The mean me? that's the only me :)

Uh oh, 18 comments...almost to 20 :D

Re: Hmmmm soccerstar2150 March 2 2005, 08:27:48 UTC

But you're right, there's no reason for this to go on. It's old news.

Re: Hmmmm balletboy March 2 2005, 15:23:29 UTC

I'm pretty sure that bashing my friends isn't helping here. When Perkins asked you a legitimate question, you responded by insulting him. There was no "Because I'm still in love with her" or "she makes me happy." The initially reaction was negative. It's something you've done forever, and it finally alienated me enough to not feel bad about fucking your girlfriend. At least Perkins has something to contribute that makes conversation possible.

Re: Hmmmm soccerstar2150 March 2 2005, 18:46:51 UTC

There was nothing legitimate about Perkins' comment. He has no reason to be involved in this part of the conversation. He was out of place asking me the question, so I gave him a response that fit.

And I'm glad you didn't feel bad about the sex. Wouldn't want your first time to be un-enjoyable. The part I don't like is that you didn't come to me before it happened. Didn't let me know that it was even an issue. As alienated as you may have felt, a decent person would've talked about it before just going ahead and fucking the only thing I've ever loved in life. I know you may not care, but this is a big deal to me. I wouldn't do that to you if the situation was ever reversed, and maybe it was too much to expect the same out of you.

Whether or not you feel sorry for it or believe me, the fact of the matter is that you were wrong to go behind my back like that. So was she, but her and I are dealing with that separately, not making it a public matter. At least I had the class to leave other people out of it.

Re: Hmmmm shinigurai March 2 2005, 20:32:33 UTC

I know all about Dave and his habits. He's a really cool guy, but yeah he can be an ass because he's not always upfront and honest with people. Still it remains a fact that people gossip. To be honest I'm not surprised at what Matt, Justine, and Dave have said about me. That is indeed the way I act around them. But that doesn't actually make me who I am. Everyone acts differently around different groups of people. I have no doubt that you act differently when you're alone with Justine. And yes, this discussion does involve me, because it involves atleast one, if not two, of my friends. So why are you trying to take stabs at me when I'm just trying to get legitimate answers?

Re: Hmmmm soccerstar2150 March 2 2005, 20:58:18 UTC

I understand that what I know of you isn't exactly who you are. But...why would you be upset with me pointing out what I know about you, when it's all you've shown? I have nothing against you, but the impression I've gotten about you from you and others is exactly as I've described it. Telling us that it's not how you always are doesn't make it less true.

There is no reason for you to involve yourself in this. You feeling that you're a part of this is insulting. Just because your friends are having an issue doesn't make it your issue as well. I appreciate the fact that you may in fact be trying to help the situation...but there's no place for you in this argument.

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