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Today my mother and I went to the mall. She bought me a bunch of shit and I feel awful because she just said that this moth was going to be really tight financially. I didn't ask for anything though so I guess I shouldn't feel that bad. I mean, I like all the stuff she bought me.
I know that Alanna and Madelena and hate my guts. I might aswell stop hanging out with them. But the downside to that is I will have to leave Emily, Rebeccah and Tanya. I really love them. I'm torn in the middle. But if it will make Alanna and Madelena happy, I'll hang out with other people.
My cuts are NOT healing and I'm so scared that the doctors are going to find out. In fact I know they will. I will be in so much trouble because I just spent so much time convincing everyone that I'm not suicidal. But I guess if I only cut myself it doesn't count as suicidal, right?
Life is so screwed up. I hope I figure all this out soon.
Meg
I know that Alanna and Madelena and hate my guts. I might aswell stop hanging out with them. But the downside to that is I will have to leave Emily, Rebeccah and Tanya. I really love them. I'm torn in the middle. But if it will make Alanna and Madelena happy, I'll hang out with other people.
My cuts are NOT healing and I'm so scared that the doctors are going to find out. In fact I know they will. I will be in so much trouble because I just spent so much time convincing everyone that I'm not suicidal. But I guess if I only cut myself it doesn't count as suicidal, right?
Life is so screwed up. I hope I figure all this out soon.
Meg