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Got a callback for the job I interviewed for! Going to teach/choreograph on some students next week. I am seriously so excited, and have never wanted a job this badly before.
I miss/loved school, but I feel sort of liberated at this point. I can go out in the backyard and dance like a nut, and create work to whatever music I please in whatever style I please without the subtle scoffed at feeling I am not conforming to collegiate very free and abstract modern dance!
I have been slowly but surely throwing away/selling/donating the little world I created in my room over the past 21 years. It is kind of hard, as even the stupid plastic cat figurines I encountered earlier have some sort of nostalgic value, but I am excited to start my own crazy life, and to see what I can do. A lot of people have not agreed with my choice to get married this summer, sure it is early in life, but I like having real life bombard me all at once. It feels good. Besides, it is not like my feelings are going to change in a year- it has already been seven+ years of testing the waters, I think Russell and I are in it for the long haul!
Also strange- watching someone (aka Russell) you have been super close to grow up and get so mature in such major ways. It is different with my girl friends; they have all become beautiful people and discovered tons about themselves and made major life decisions, but it just seems so much more extreme with Russell! I think that it feels that way because I feel no different, and no more mature! I am, I'm sure, but I just feel like the same old me...
In other news, Domino is getting gigantic. Also the most beautiful bunny/rabbit I have ever owned. She is kind of a naughty rabbit though, and sneaks up on my mom's flowers to eat them all the time. I like her mischevious spirit though... the best thing is when she goes to a corner of my porch, lined up like an Olympic gymnast doing a floor routine, and bolts towards the other side of the porch- flipping herself up, jumping into the air, and kicking her feet together. It is amazing.
Anyways, I am in a good place, also a few hundred Beanie Babies lighter! I have no serious goals for the summer, besides creating work as I please, making a little money here and there, and toning up/losing some lbs. Goodbye college weight!
I just wish I could find good enough modern classes in the So NH area...
I miss/loved school, but I feel sort of liberated at this point. I can go out in the backyard and dance like a nut, and create work to whatever music I please in whatever style I please without the subtle scoffed at feeling I am not conforming to collegiate very free and abstract modern dance!
I have been slowly but surely throwing away/selling/donating the little world I created in my room over the past 21 years. It is kind of hard, as even the stupid plastic cat figurines I encountered earlier have some sort of nostalgic value, but I am excited to start my own crazy life, and to see what I can do. A lot of people have not agreed with my choice to get married this summer, sure it is early in life, but I like having real life bombard me all at once. It feels good. Besides, it is not like my feelings are going to change in a year- it has already been seven+ years of testing the waters, I think Russell and I are in it for the long haul!
Also strange- watching someone (aka Russell) you have been super close to grow up and get so mature in such major ways. It is different with my girl friends; they have all become beautiful people and discovered tons about themselves and made major life decisions, but it just seems so much more extreme with Russell! I think that it feels that way because I feel no different, and no more mature! I am, I'm sure, but I just feel like the same old me...
In other news, Domino is getting gigantic. Also the most beautiful bunny/rabbit I have ever owned. She is kind of a naughty rabbit though, and sneaks up on my mom's flowers to eat them all the time. I like her mischevious spirit though... the best thing is when she goes to a corner of my porch, lined up like an Olympic gymnast doing a floor routine, and bolts towards the other side of the porch- flipping herself up, jumping into the air, and kicking her feet together. It is amazing.
Anyways, I am in a good place, also a few hundred Beanie Babies lighter! I have no serious goals for the summer, besides creating work as I please, making a little money here and there, and toning up/losing some lbs. Goodbye college weight!
I just wish I could find good enough modern classes in the So NH area...