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**don't comment...just listen...that's really all i want right now is someone who'll listen...
so i found out today nobody really reads my posts...they read other ppl's, but never seem to "get around" to mine...bullshit...i care, and that hurts...
i don't really know what to write...I'm just trying to vent a little...
i'm lonely...not because i'm not in a relationship...more because i feel like ppl just put up ith me cuz they pity me...i noticed that most people don't voluntarily talk to me...i always seems to be the one to start conversations...i have a bunch of ppl's screennames, but i no longer feel there's a point to going on to aim...i just end up sitting at my computer either sleeping or watching tv, hoping someone will im me...i know...pathetic...but it's true...
i don't go anywhere...i'm really not a social person...i go camping with the boy scouts...but i don't enjoy it anymore...i find myself alone or sleeping...maybe w4a will be different...who knows...but i'm already signed up so i'm going...
i miss jeremy...yea, you make your jokes about him but, truthfully, he's a better brother than any of you are friends...and i mean that...80% offensively...20% just because it's true...
my myspace top 8 should be cut down to 2...maybe 3...and not my top 3 either...in fact, one of the ppl isn't even on my current top 8...don't believe me? i'm thinkin jeremy, michelle, and light my candle (Rivkah, but you don't know her)...yea...lil bit different than what you thought i'm sure...but i think they deserve it most...as the only ppl i wish i talked to more often...everyone else can go to hell (no offense...some of you)...
i'm in a generally bad mood...duh
i think i'll take a break from all this...livejournal, myspace, aim, all of it...and maybe i'll call my bro...
talkin about my bro actually made me realize something..."you aint seen nothin yet"...i guess that works...those of you who think you know me well, or that we're close...yes, you...you know who you are...you don't know jack-shit about me...honestly...if you knew anything about me...the real me...the me that noone sees but me...and jeremy when he's home...you'd probably hate me..."with a passion" (give you a little hint???)...the truth is...no...you're not ready for it...any of you...just thought i'd let you know i try to be who you see me as...and belive me it's often very hard...
i don't know why i talk to the people i do...
i hate ppl...everybody...the world is filled with stupid, lazy, selfish, inconsiderate, conceited little pussies who should go to hell and be tortured for the rest of eternity...and if i know who you are...don't say it doesn't apply to you...cuz i don't know a single person who isn't at least one of those things...and that includes me...i'm every single one of those things...
i think that's enough venting for one night...
sincerely,
evan
so i found out today nobody really reads my posts...they read other ppl's, but never seem to "get around" to mine...bullshit...i care, and that hurts...
i don't really know what to write...I'm just trying to vent a little...
i'm lonely...not because i'm not in a relationship...more because i feel like ppl just put up ith me cuz they pity me...i noticed that most people don't voluntarily talk to me...i always seems to be the one to start conversations...i have a bunch of ppl's screennames, but i no longer feel there's a point to going on to aim...i just end up sitting at my computer either sleeping or watching tv, hoping someone will im me...i know...pathetic...but it's true...
i don't go anywhere...i'm really not a social person...i go camping with the boy scouts...but i don't enjoy it anymore...i find myself alone or sleeping...maybe w4a will be different...who knows...but i'm already signed up so i'm going...
i miss jeremy...yea, you make your jokes about him but, truthfully, he's a better brother than any of you are friends...and i mean that...80% offensively...20% just because it's true...
my myspace top 8 should be cut down to 2...maybe 3...and not my top 3 either...in fact, one of the ppl isn't even on my current top 8...don't believe me? i'm thinkin jeremy, michelle, and light my candle (Rivkah, but you don't know her)...yea...lil bit different than what you thought i'm sure...but i think they deserve it most...as the only ppl i wish i talked to more often...everyone else can go to hell (no offense...some of you)...
i'm in a generally bad mood...duh
i think i'll take a break from all this...livejournal, myspace, aim, all of it...and maybe i'll call my bro...
talkin about my bro actually made me realize something..."you aint seen nothin yet"...i guess that works...those of you who think you know me well, or that we're close...yes, you...you know who you are...you don't know jack-shit about me...honestly...if you knew anything about me...the real me...the me that noone sees but me...and jeremy when he's home...you'd probably hate me..."with a passion" (give you a little hint???)...the truth is...no...you're not ready for it...any of you...just thought i'd let you know i try to be who you see me as...and belive me it's often very hard...
i don't know why i talk to the people i do...
i hate ppl...everybody...the world is filled with stupid, lazy, selfish, inconsiderate, conceited little pussies who should go to hell and be tortured for the rest of eternity...and if i know who you are...don't say it doesn't apply to you...cuz i don't know a single person who isn't at least one of those things...and that includes me...i'm every single one of those things...
i think that's enough venting for one night...
sincerely,
evan