To be lost in the forest

[balladsofmirth]

Writing a 4,000 travel guide about Australia causes me to 1. miss my friends who now live there and 2. wish I could  travel abroad, which isn't possible just yet. Gotta save up the pennies to square away my finances - finally - and save for the move/apartment business. Good thing = when I'm ready to travel, I can not only experience a new place (

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[balladsofmirth]

Yes. Yes.

I've also considered that though people may not want/be able to be in my life in the present, that this does not eliminate such hope for the future. I'm learning to ease my expectations a bit.

For example, one of my teens suffers from shiny object syndrome: he can only see what is directly in front of him. I know he adores me to BITS, but when I'm not physically in Boston, his communication with me is erratic. It's been an important lesson for me. I've never been angry with him over missed phone calls or silence for days at a time, but this patience is something I'm working on transferring into other areas of my life.

Am I making sense? I guess I'm saying that the quotation is important, but that it doesn't always mean the snipping of cords.

And of course, friendship is a two-way street: each party has to uphold their end of the deal.

/Ramble.

Yes, that note was excellent.

[wolodymyr]

Actually, I've been in a two-day funk over my parents. Who, you know, were abusive. Abusive! And yet I keep some days being sunk in this notion that I owe it to them to try more, try harder, fix it, etc. etc.

My father has a tendency to forget my name. My mother used my birthday as an occasion to stalk my boyfriend - and she had the wrong day.

If they really wanted what their occasional plaintive Hallmark cards say they want, they'd have found a way to let me know.

Re: Yes, that note was excellent.

[balladsofmirth]

I think we sometimes we forget that we deserve as much as put out. It's okay, sometimes, to take a step back.

Easier said than done, I know.

It's a two-way street. It's okay to hold up signs and give out maps to help people find this street and even to identify its contents, but they have to make an effort. Yes.

Did something trigger your funk? I know it's not always something as "simple" as that.

Do the parents have positive qualities? Do they live in the same area?

[wolodymyr]

For what it's worth, which isn't much:
http://wolodymyr.livejournal.com/126677.html

I haven't yet met a person without positive qualities.

[balladsofmirth]

Thank you for this.

[balladsofmirth]

or rather, for sharing this with me.