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just returned from my friends engagement party.... Spent half the time watching the cricket and deciding whether or not to get off the free beer (yuk) onto the much more user friendly cointreau! I know that sounds awful yet I really couldnt comprehend the whole situation... what getting together to celebrate the decision TO get married, just seems a little useless to me. I think I was mainly out of joint because this involved buying a gift too! hehe, but the alcohol was (mainly) free so I suppose I cant complain.
Yet I also spent most of the day with Beth, a girl whom a year ago I was completely in love with, and her being a cousin of my friend of course she was going to be there. Completely a trip as the reason why she didnt want more is along the lines of she didnt see anything happening at all between her and I, couldnt see the connection, yet today a few people came up and asked if we were together due to the amount of time and closeness between us. Maybe it's just me reading more into things than what is actually there. I know whats going on here too, yet in the moment, I'm back where I was a year ago and I'm putty, which isnt good at all! lol But I guess some feelings just dont disappear as much as you want them to...
Yet I also spent most of the day with Beth, a girl whom a year ago I was completely in love with, and her being a cousin of my friend of course she was going to be there. Completely a trip as the reason why she didnt want more is along the lines of she didnt see anything happening at all between her and I, couldnt see the connection, yet today a few people came up and asked if we were together due to the amount of time and closeness between us. Maybe it's just me reading more into things than what is actually there. I know whats going on here too, yet in the moment, I'm back where I was a year ago and I'm putty, which isnt good at all! lol But I guess some feelings just dont disappear as much as you want them to...