what i want

[ball_z]

i want to get better grades. i want to have a social life. i want to be cool. i want to have a car that works. i want to not hate my parents. but what i really want is to have someone that i can run up to, give a kiss, and hold in my arms, knowing that she will always be there for me, and i'll always be there for her.
i want to be able to walk down the hallways holding her hand, knowing that we are together, inseperable. and that we are special to each other.
and being able to not care what anybody says about us, because we know it's right. and we know it will be right, for a long time. never thinking the thought that it might end
i just want someone to care for me the same as i care for them
it doesn't sound like much in writing. it's just so complicated in real life
i think. i think that deep down inside, thats what we all want. just, not everybody knows it yet. and for those of us who do, the fear of it never comming true consumes us. consumes us until we can't breath anymore, and the only way out seems to be the easy way. go with the easy way, and everything will be ok. but the easy way is like quicksand. and before you know it, you've gone too far in, and find yourself struggling to your end.
it's no wonder i don't sleep at night