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This´ll be short.
I know, haha, you´re already laughing in disbelief.
These days it goes up and down. Miguel is my temporary savior and distractor from all bad things.
On every 10th of every month I had put down what month anniversary it was of me and andrews. I crossed it out. I know have labeled every month anniversary of my being in Spain. I think that will put me on a different and more healthy time reference.
I haven´t cried before bed since I got drunk Saturday night. I think that´s probably a very good thing. Though sleeping in general is sucking the big one. Still am taking dramamine every night, I still wake up the second it wears off and have to turn over and over until I fall asleep again.
My mom sent me craisins and tylenol PM to sleep. I think those two things will bring me immeasurable joy once they get here.
I´m behind in my novelas class cause I haven´t been able to concentrate for the past week and I have to do a five min presentation. Makes me nervous.
I´m planning trips and it´s fun, gives me something else to think about. I might be going to Madrid in two weeks, I´m going to Paris in a month (which is the deadline for having a shoulder to cry on, i´m meeting my mom there), and I´ve also recently re-realized that I have Annie my friend from home in Italy to visit, and... if you all remember Andy from this summer is in England and I completely forgot cause I knew it would drive Andrew up the wall if I visited him in London. But now I have the opportunity to go and show absolutely no self-constraint. Interesting...
I´m feeling the rebound itch. I just know it would make me feel a bit better. What sucks is that none of my good ole standbys are here. That kinda sucks. Though, Andy... We´ll see.
I also think I´ll be going to Bilbao soon and finally see the Guggenheim. Depends on how these other trips pan out, but it´s about time.
Gotta run to class.
I´m doing alright. Like I said. Up and down.
Still hoping he feels like shit. That one´s not going to go away for a long time.
I know, haha, you´re already laughing in disbelief.
These days it goes up and down. Miguel is my temporary savior and distractor from all bad things.
On every 10th of every month I had put down what month anniversary it was of me and andrews. I crossed it out. I know have labeled every month anniversary of my being in Spain. I think that will put me on a different and more healthy time reference.
I haven´t cried before bed since I got drunk Saturday night. I think that´s probably a very good thing. Though sleeping in general is sucking the big one. Still am taking dramamine every night, I still wake up the second it wears off and have to turn over and over until I fall asleep again.
My mom sent me craisins and tylenol PM to sleep. I think those two things will bring me immeasurable joy once they get here.
I´m behind in my novelas class cause I haven´t been able to concentrate for the past week and I have to do a five min presentation. Makes me nervous.
I´m planning trips and it´s fun, gives me something else to think about. I might be going to Madrid in two weeks, I´m going to Paris in a month (which is the deadline for having a shoulder to cry on, i´m meeting my mom there), and I´ve also recently re-realized that I have Annie my friend from home in Italy to visit, and... if you all remember Andy from this summer is in England and I completely forgot cause I knew it would drive Andrew up the wall if I visited him in London. But now I have the opportunity to go and show absolutely no self-constraint. Interesting...
I´m feeling the rebound itch. I just know it would make me feel a bit better. What sucks is that none of my good ole standbys are here. That kinda sucks. Though, Andy... We´ll see.
I also think I´ll be going to Bilbao soon and finally see the Guggenheim. Depends on how these other trips pan out, but it´s about time.
Gotta run to class.
I´m doing alright. Like I said. Up and down.
Still hoping he feels like shit. That one´s not going to go away for a long time.