Stuff
I talked to my first love a few days ago and I am starting to remember why I fell in love with him before... I really wish we had tried to work things out more. Why was I so stupid? There are four places in the states that I really have to go to in the coming school year... 1) Boston 2)Pittsburgh 3) Ithaca 4) North Carolina
Boston for the Lees, Nathan, Stephanie Nicolas, and Wonhee
Pittsburgh for JLo, Nick, and Philip
Ithaca for Tim and Hubert
North Carolina for Paul Tsao
But you know what? I'm so poor now, I already spent all of the money I made. I really need to learn to control my spending habits. I am gonna try to save money so I can go to visit them. That's major travelling. I also promised Stephanie Nicolas that I would visit her in Miami but that is going to have to wait.
I also realized that I am ridiculously stupid when it comes to academic and career planning. I'm also stupid in terms of picking WHEN to date people, and WHO to date. Why, why, why. Stupid stupid stupid.........
HE is coming back to HK on June 16th and I really better not get involved with him again this summer. Why do I always start things without thinking... then get all annoyed and upset when it's time to end things? STUPID ME! I mean no harm, anyone who knows me well enough knows that, but somehow when it comes to dating I cannot stop screwing up. Thinking about all the guys I've gotten involved with over the years REALLY shows me how I have BAD TIMING and commitment issues... What is wrong with me...?
Also... the case with Ronan... Vannie you and Ada were right... he is completely useless.... I don't know what I saw in him.... you don't know how much I despise him now!!!!! He is so pretentious and such a liar... but I thought he was "different"... ?! I am stupid..
I am also kind of psychologically messed up these days, GAD and depression are acting up again, shoot me now, why can't I just get better and stay better?
Boston for the Lees, Nathan, Stephanie Nicolas, and Wonhee
Pittsburgh for JLo, Nick, and Philip
Ithaca for Tim and Hubert
North Carolina for Paul Tsao
But you know what? I'm so poor now, I already spent all of the money I made. I really need to learn to control my spending habits. I am gonna try to save money so I can go to visit them. That's major travelling. I also promised Stephanie Nicolas that I would visit her in Miami but that is going to have to wait.
I also realized that I am ridiculously stupid when it comes to academic and career planning. I'm also stupid in terms of picking WHEN to date people, and WHO to date. Why, why, why. Stupid stupid stupid.........
HE is coming back to HK on June 16th and I really better not get involved with him again this summer. Why do I always start things without thinking... then get all annoyed and upset when it's time to end things? STUPID ME! I mean no harm, anyone who knows me well enough knows that, but somehow when it comes to dating I cannot stop screwing up. Thinking about all the guys I've gotten involved with over the years REALLY shows me how I have BAD TIMING and commitment issues... What is wrong with me...?
Also... the case with Ronan... Vannie you and Ada were right... he is completely useless.... I don't know what I saw in him.... you don't know how much I despise him now!!!!! He is so pretentious and such a liar... but I thought he was "different"... ?! I am stupid..
I am also kind of psychologically messed up these days, GAD and depression are acting up again, shoot me now, why can't I just get better and stay better?