eh...
Well i havent written in a while as you can see the last time i was writing robbie broke up with me half way through...so that wasnt a happy day for me.
Things have been ok lately. They've gotten better...but i miss robbie more than anything... i try not to talk about it to much cuz i think everyone is sick and tired of hearing about it but sometimes..even though it happened almost two weeks ago im still kinda hurtin...i try not to show it but sometimes its really hard for the most part when people ask me whats the matter i just tell them im tired....maybe i shouldnt have put that cuz people are going to be like what the hell! and whenever i say im tired now even when i really am they wont believe me...anyways...
There are just certain things that i really miss about him...i miss talking to him on the phone everynight(i kno i can stil do that but i dont want to be all up in his grill, i wanna give him space, i mean im not goin out with him anymore so it would seem kinda strange i guess...)I miss hanging out with him, i miss holding hands with him, i miss his kisses, i miss just cuddling with him, but most of all i miss his hugs...there is just something about his hugs that can make everything better...i dont kno how to explain it...all i kno is that when im hugging him nothing else in the world matters..
Im sure everyone thinks thats extremely corny but it isnt to me...
The most painful thing is to be sitting next to him in journalism knowing that i had him at one point and now i've lost him or dreaming that everything is back to the way it was before, and then you wake up and you realize its not...
Even tho we are still friends and i still talk to him about a lot..it's different,butits not his fault he cant control the way he feels and i dont hate him at all. I would hate for him to have stayed with me if it didnt feel right to him. I care about him more than anything, and if it meant that we should break up than thats what should happen. He's not just an ex-boyfriend or a friend hes more than that...i just cant say it in words...hes just...Robbie....
Things have been ok lately. They've gotten better...but i miss robbie more than anything... i try not to talk about it to much cuz i think everyone is sick and tired of hearing about it but sometimes..even though it happened almost two weeks ago im still kinda hurtin...i try not to show it but sometimes its really hard for the most part when people ask me whats the matter i just tell them im tired....maybe i shouldnt have put that cuz people are going to be like what the hell! and whenever i say im tired now even when i really am they wont believe me...anyways...
There are just certain things that i really miss about him...i miss talking to him on the phone everynight(i kno i can stil do that but i dont want to be all up in his grill, i wanna give him space, i mean im not goin out with him anymore so it would seem kinda strange i guess...)I miss hanging out with him, i miss holding hands with him, i miss his kisses, i miss just cuddling with him, but most of all i miss his hugs...there is just something about his hugs that can make everything better...i dont kno how to explain it...all i kno is that when im hugging him nothing else in the world matters..
Im sure everyone thinks thats extremely corny but it isnt to me...
The most painful thing is to be sitting next to him in journalism knowing that i had him at one point and now i've lost him or dreaming that everything is back to the way it was before, and then you wake up and you realize its not...
Even tho we are still friends and i still talk to him about a lot..it's different,butits not his fault he cant control the way he feels and i dont hate him at all. I would hate for him to have stayed with me if it didnt feel right to him. I care about him more than anything, and if it meant that we should break up than thats what should happen. He's not just an ex-boyfriend or a friend hes more than that...i just cant say it in words...hes just...Robbie....