I don't know...
Well this week, although has only been two days, has been very interesting...and different...Sunday i went out with
Sonya to sell raffle tickets for the Somerset High School marching band..lol...it was actually quite fun! Then Sonya, Stephie, Erin, and I went to a concert to see Of One Blood(who by the way we missed cuz we were standing outside in the cold waiting to get in,which really sucked!)There was some "moss pitching" =mosh pitting, goin on. Let me just tell you i thought i was goin to die.. i got attacked by 3 people it was crazy but i had fun.
After that me erin and stephie went out to eat at Friendly's, we had a blast! We met Bonnie, who was out waitress, wicked nice lady! and we talked to Mike D. that kid cracks me up! Then we slept over Erin's house. I really had alot of fun even though erin felt that she needed to entertain us every second we were there..lol...
Today i went out with Sonya to sell the Raffles the again, so much fun!! We sold like $240 worth! WE ROCK!! Then we went to visit Jay a few times at his work, hospital,lol. We've discovered the glory of cheap hospital food...lol...and then i kinda went on a blind date with the kid Brett who is friends with Jay. He's a wicked nice kid and he was so funny, and i had a lot of fun...but..it didnt feel right. I dont kno if its because im not ready to do that yet, or whatever, it just didnt feel right. I really hate this im trying to hard with all that i have to get over him but i cant, i just cant, and i feel so stupid and i feel like im being obsessive, but i miss him so much..like its not just because we broke up, i feel like we're not friends anymore like he just doesnt want to be around me, i need him and i dont mean in a bf kinda way i really need him as a friend right now in my life. Even though i have plenty of really good friends who would be willing to do anything for me and i absolutley love them for that..but i need him, he was my friend..it's just making me so miserable and although it may seem like its no big deal to every one else...here i'll let you be me for a second ~imagine having a friend who you could talk to about anything and i mean anything. you didnt trust anyone as much as you trusted them and then things started to get more serious and you got closer and i dont mean just because your going out but i dunno your just closer...and then it all goes away within a week or two...it makes a person miserable. When i was watching 50 first dates, i was almost wishing that i had that. That i could wake up every day with a clean slate and i dont remember things, i mean yeah you have pain but then you dont remember it the next day...
I'm just so confused right now..i dont know what to do...i dont kno what to do after i graduate...i dont kno what i want to do with my life! I just need him to be my friend right now more than anything...i need that robbie that i called every night to talk to, whether it be about absolutely stupid small things or it be about life changing decisions.
I kno that you might be thinking "oh for christs sake why doesnt she just get over him" well to that i qoute my good friend Erin~"There is no set time to get over a person, you take as much time as you need, and nobody else has a say!" Hopefully time will heal all...
Even though i do feel like an absolutely sappy, corny, whatever you may call it, idiot...this is how i feel...
Sonya to sell raffle tickets for the Somerset High School marching band..lol...it was actually quite fun! Then Sonya, Stephie, Erin, and I went to a concert to see Of One Blood(who by the way we missed cuz we were standing outside in the cold waiting to get in,which really sucked!)There was some "moss pitching" =mosh pitting, goin on. Let me just tell you i thought i was goin to die.. i got attacked by 3 people it was crazy but i had fun.
After that me erin and stephie went out to eat at Friendly's, we had a blast! We met Bonnie, who was out waitress, wicked nice lady! and we talked to Mike D. that kid cracks me up! Then we slept over Erin's house. I really had alot of fun even though erin felt that she needed to entertain us every second we were there..lol...
Today i went out with Sonya to sell the Raffles the again, so much fun!! We sold like $240 worth! WE ROCK!! Then we went to visit Jay a few times at his work, hospital,lol. We've discovered the glory of cheap hospital food...lol...and then i kinda went on a blind date with the kid Brett who is friends with Jay. He's a wicked nice kid and he was so funny, and i had a lot of fun...but..it didnt feel right. I dont kno if its because im not ready to do that yet, or whatever, it just didnt feel right. I really hate this im trying to hard with all that i have to get over him but i cant, i just cant, and i feel so stupid and i feel like im being obsessive, but i miss him so much..like its not just because we broke up, i feel like we're not friends anymore like he just doesnt want to be around me, i need him and i dont mean in a bf kinda way i really need him as a friend right now in my life. Even though i have plenty of really good friends who would be willing to do anything for me and i absolutley love them for that..but i need him, he was my friend..it's just making me so miserable and although it may seem like its no big deal to every one else...here i'll let you be me for a second ~imagine having a friend who you could talk to about anything and i mean anything. you didnt trust anyone as much as you trusted them and then things started to get more serious and you got closer and i dont mean just because your going out but i dunno your just closer...and then it all goes away within a week or two...it makes a person miserable. When i was watching 50 first dates, i was almost wishing that i had that. That i could wake up every day with a clean slate and i dont remember things, i mean yeah you have pain but then you dont remember it the next day...
I'm just so confused right now..i dont know what to do...i dont kno what to do after i graduate...i dont kno what i want to do with my life! I just need him to be my friend right now more than anything...i need that robbie that i called every night to talk to, whether it be about absolutely stupid small things or it be about life changing decisions.
I kno that you might be thinking "oh for christs sake why doesnt she just get over him" well to that i qoute my good friend Erin~"There is no set time to get over a person, you take as much time as you need, and nobody else has a say!" Hopefully time will heal all...
Even though i do feel like an absolutely sappy, corny, whatever you may call it, idiot...this is how i feel...