long week
i haven't been able to get the nerve to write in here until now...
well i'm at swim practice and scott murphy comes up to me and goes alex... do you talk to sarah larson often? and i was like of course i do! and he was like well did you hear?? and i was just kinda like what...? and he was like her brother died in iraq... and i just kinda stared at him and was like huh?? no he didn't i didnt hear about that... and he was like well yea mrs larson found out right after school two men from the army came into cy-creek and told her... and i was just like no.. no.. no i dont believe it. im not going to believe it until i hear it from someone else~ and that was it.
then i'm swimming later, starting to think about it really happening, and i stop on the wall and see haley talking to coach cagle. i was like hey chaley!! and he was like basso... did you hear about scott larson? and i just froze. and i jumped out of the pool and i was like cagle- can i talk to haley. and he was just like sure... and she told me all she had heard so far. and i immediately started bawling. that day at school i had been in the AP office with jaime helping mrs larson do AP stuff because we didnt want to go to an assembly- and mrs larson was talking about how excited she was scott was coming home soon and how she had his easter present ready. and i just kept on crying. i tried swimming, and everyone was asking me what was wrong but i was too choked up to talk. when i knew i couldnt go on, i went inside and called the kelly twins and asked if i could help them make something for sarah. they said of course, and i left practice.
i went to the kelly's, and me, sarah, leah, and kelly went to wal-mart. we bought cheesecake ingredients (because it's sarah's favorite food), the largest stuffed animal we could find, and a poster to make for her. we went back to the kelly's and slowly more and more people started showing up. we baked a cookie-dough cheesecake and a regular cheesecake (they looked pretty bad, but hey, we didn't really care) and were informed that we shouldnt go to the larsons house that night- give them a few days. we wanted to bring the cakes over tho, so we called angela (who had been there all day since they found out) and she said no we should come cos sarah would love to see us. so we all piled up in cars and drove over there.
it was sooo incredibly sad. but even tho i had been crying constantly all afternoon, when i walked in and sarah grabbed me into a huge hug, i couldnt cry. i just sat there hugging sarah crying on my shoulder, telling her she was going to be okay. sarah is the strongest, most amazing person i know. she has the biggest heart and is the hugest christian, along with the rest of her awesome family. it's so tragic that of all people, this had to happen to THEM. we sat around talking for a while trying to get sarah to get her mind off of things for a while. i looked in the parents bed room, and mrs larson and mr larson were just sitting there... staring. i was told mrs larson was in denial, and every once in a while she would break down and start screaming i want my baby! and sobbing uncontrolably. it was absolutely devestating. i finally left around 10 to go home and start doing homework (which i failed to be able to do).
then school yesterday. the poster we made for her we filled with pictures (including ones of us with scott when he came to visit us at the state water polo tournament)- and we got as many people as possible to sign it. so many people love sarah, so that wasn't hard at all. they came on the announcements and said it during 2nd period, and i started crying really hard. then, of all classes i had to be in, it was history- and we were talking about war. that was so hard. the rest of the day was such a blur- i couldn't concentrate on anything at all. i was, along with many- in such a sad mood. finally during 6th period i asked my teacher if i could go to the counsilers. i walked out of class, and went to the APs office. that was SO hard- i had to fight back tears as soon as i walked in. i talked to them for a minute or two, and then just left school. i drove to the bleyl pool and talked to coach sharar for a while. then me and some freshmen guys went to randalls to pick out something for caleb. david figured itd be best to get him lunchables, cos he always eats them. so we bought him 6, and left. we went back to bleyl and waited until school finally got out and for all the varsity swimmers to show up. then we all drove in a carpool over to the larsons.
when we got there- mrs larson was out in the living room. we all walked in a line, and she gave us each of a huge hug, crying on all of our shoulders. i felt so bad for her. then we all waited around because sarah and caleb had gone to best buy to get out of the house. taleigh was there, and i sat and talked to her for a while. the poor thing~ scott had written a poem in iraq a few weeks ago and taleigh read it for our poetry project last week. she was so torn up. then we were all sitting in the living room, and mrs larson was by her self on a chair crying. i went up to her to give her a hug, and she kept on crying louder and louder. i was trying to comfort her, and she kept on telling me how hard it was and how she can never hear him say i love you mommy anymore. sarah finally got home and we gave her the card and bear and sat around talking to her, making her laugh. i was going to go to swim practice~ but everyone was like are you kidding basso? so i was like yes... of course. i dont really know what i was thinking wanted to go- sarah needed me there.
they had filmed a segment for the news earlier that day, and it came on at 5. we were all in the living room to watch it. it was sooo sad. the whole thing mrs larson was sobbing and reaching out to the tv from the couch. after it, the room was silent and we all just sat there listening to mrs larson cry. it was so depressing. from that point on, i was in such a sad, sad mood. we started watching zoolander to try to get everyone happy again~ didn't really work for me tho. i left, and was in such a far off, depressed mood last night i couldnt do anything.
today will hopefully be better, i'm going over there after school and then im gonna go straight to swim practice. then after practice im gonna pick up david and justin and we're gonna go get larson and meet angela and brian up at joes crab shack. we're gonna eat there and then go back to brian's for a movie. anything we can do to get sarah just not thinking about it and laughing again.
i'm so sorry for the larson family, why such horrible things happen to such amazing people, i'll never know. i love you sarah larson, and i'm keeping you and your family in my prayers and thoughts.
rest in peace scott larson, 4-05-04
<3alex
well i'm at swim practice and scott murphy comes up to me and goes alex... do you talk to sarah larson often? and i was like of course i do! and he was like well did you hear?? and i was just kinda like what...? and he was like her brother died in iraq... and i just kinda stared at him and was like huh?? no he didn't i didnt hear about that... and he was like well yea mrs larson found out right after school two men from the army came into cy-creek and told her... and i was just like no.. no.. no i dont believe it. im not going to believe it until i hear it from someone else~ and that was it.
then i'm swimming later, starting to think about it really happening, and i stop on the wall and see haley talking to coach cagle. i was like hey chaley!! and he was like basso... did you hear about scott larson? and i just froze. and i jumped out of the pool and i was like cagle- can i talk to haley. and he was just like sure... and she told me all she had heard so far. and i immediately started bawling. that day at school i had been in the AP office with jaime helping mrs larson do AP stuff because we didnt want to go to an assembly- and mrs larson was talking about how excited she was scott was coming home soon and how she had his easter present ready. and i just kept on crying. i tried swimming, and everyone was asking me what was wrong but i was too choked up to talk. when i knew i couldnt go on, i went inside and called the kelly twins and asked if i could help them make something for sarah. they said of course, and i left practice.
i went to the kelly's, and me, sarah, leah, and kelly went to wal-mart. we bought cheesecake ingredients (because it's sarah's favorite food), the largest stuffed animal we could find, and a poster to make for her. we went back to the kelly's and slowly more and more people started showing up. we baked a cookie-dough cheesecake and a regular cheesecake (they looked pretty bad, but hey, we didn't really care) and were informed that we shouldnt go to the larsons house that night- give them a few days. we wanted to bring the cakes over tho, so we called angela (who had been there all day since they found out) and she said no we should come cos sarah would love to see us. so we all piled up in cars and drove over there.
it was sooo incredibly sad. but even tho i had been crying constantly all afternoon, when i walked in and sarah grabbed me into a huge hug, i couldnt cry. i just sat there hugging sarah crying on my shoulder, telling her she was going to be okay. sarah is the strongest, most amazing person i know. she has the biggest heart and is the hugest christian, along with the rest of her awesome family. it's so tragic that of all people, this had to happen to THEM. we sat around talking for a while trying to get sarah to get her mind off of things for a while. i looked in the parents bed room, and mrs larson and mr larson were just sitting there... staring. i was told mrs larson was in denial, and every once in a while she would break down and start screaming i want my baby! and sobbing uncontrolably. it was absolutely devestating. i finally left around 10 to go home and start doing homework (which i failed to be able to do).
then school yesterday. the poster we made for her we filled with pictures (including ones of us with scott when he came to visit us at the state water polo tournament)- and we got as many people as possible to sign it. so many people love sarah, so that wasn't hard at all. they came on the announcements and said it during 2nd period, and i started crying really hard. then, of all classes i had to be in, it was history- and we were talking about war. that was so hard. the rest of the day was such a blur- i couldn't concentrate on anything at all. i was, along with many- in such a sad mood. finally during 6th period i asked my teacher if i could go to the counsilers. i walked out of class, and went to the APs office. that was SO hard- i had to fight back tears as soon as i walked in. i talked to them for a minute or two, and then just left school. i drove to the bleyl pool and talked to coach sharar for a while. then me and some freshmen guys went to randalls to pick out something for caleb. david figured itd be best to get him lunchables, cos he always eats them. so we bought him 6, and left. we went back to bleyl and waited until school finally got out and for all the varsity swimmers to show up. then we all drove in a carpool over to the larsons.
when we got there- mrs larson was out in the living room. we all walked in a line, and she gave us each of a huge hug, crying on all of our shoulders. i felt so bad for her. then we all waited around because sarah and caleb had gone to best buy to get out of the house. taleigh was there, and i sat and talked to her for a while. the poor thing~ scott had written a poem in iraq a few weeks ago and taleigh read it for our poetry project last week. she was so torn up. then we were all sitting in the living room, and mrs larson was by her self on a chair crying. i went up to her to give her a hug, and she kept on crying louder and louder. i was trying to comfort her, and she kept on telling me how hard it was and how she can never hear him say i love you mommy anymore. sarah finally got home and we gave her the card and bear and sat around talking to her, making her laugh. i was going to go to swim practice~ but everyone was like are you kidding basso? so i was like yes... of course. i dont really know what i was thinking wanted to go- sarah needed me there.
they had filmed a segment for the news earlier that day, and it came on at 5. we were all in the living room to watch it. it was sooo sad. the whole thing mrs larson was sobbing and reaching out to the tv from the couch. after it, the room was silent and we all just sat there listening to mrs larson cry. it was so depressing. from that point on, i was in such a sad, sad mood. we started watching zoolander to try to get everyone happy again~ didn't really work for me tho. i left, and was in such a far off, depressed mood last night i couldnt do anything.
today will hopefully be better, i'm going over there after school and then im gonna go straight to swim practice. then after practice im gonna pick up david and justin and we're gonna go get larson and meet angela and brian up at joes crab shack. we're gonna eat there and then go back to brian's for a movie. anything we can do to get sarah just not thinking about it and laughing again.
i'm so sorry for the larson family, why such horrible things happen to such amazing people, i'll never know. i love you sarah larson, and i'm keeping you and your family in my prayers and thoughts.
rest in peace scott larson, 4-05-04
<3alex