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[balerinaliz]

i've been having the worst time lately. i've been so depressed and sad. i keep having dreams of phil having sex with other girls and i have so much rage even though i know they're dreams. i had to take klonopin this morning at 8 just because i'd been so angry from last night's dream which i woke up from at 4...i don't get it...maybe i need some happier music to sleep to.
i'm too fucking emotional right now and i can't take it.

time to go cry...hopefully i can talk to phil on the phone.