I have never felt all that I am feeling.
Picture EVERY bad emotion that there is from sad to empty, from alone to totally violated.
It's happened, every part of me, inside and out, side to side, head to toe, thoughts to feelings, brain to heart, broke. why? Why did this have to happen?
I gave all that I had, gave myself thinking i'd get taken to love, want and have.
I got taken alright, then got left in the dark, literally.
I spilt the pain I had inside me, that was thrown on me... out of no-where
and still got left, for a friend that was "seriously hurt"... (from a fight),
when I had every kind of hurt in me to feel.
what happened to me tonight, really truly killed me as a person.
When I thought I have been through all bad drops and scary hoops of a roller coster,
I get stuck going down a much bigger drop that I never saw coming.
The drop was so huge it left an effect on me.
Now I am trapped in a used up body that I can't charge back up.
I want to be given the energy I can't put in me.
My battery is just about dead, with no charger to give me some power.
I don't know whaaat to do... deer caught in head lights is how I feel.
Everything happens for a reason, so I am just gunna take this BS and look at it as a hard learning process for me to get through it, learn it then A+ it and know what I didn't.
Sucks how no one can understand. I suck at explaining which doesn't help.
fuckin' A.
It's happened, every part of me, inside and out, side to side, head to toe, thoughts to feelings, brain to heart, broke. why? Why did this have to happen?
I gave all that I had, gave myself thinking i'd get taken to love, want and have.
I got taken alright, then got left in the dark, literally.
I spilt the pain I had inside me, that was thrown on me... out of no-where
and still got left, for a friend that was "seriously hurt"... (from a fight),
when I had every kind of hurt in me to feel.
what happened to me tonight, really truly killed me as a person.
When I thought I have been through all bad drops and scary hoops of a roller coster,
I get stuck going down a much bigger drop that I never saw coming.
The drop was so huge it left an effect on me.
Now I am trapped in a used up body that I can't charge back up.
I want to be given the energy I can't put in me.
My battery is just about dead, with no charger to give me some power.
I don't know whaaat to do... deer caught in head lights is how I feel.
Everything happens for a reason, so I am just gunna take this BS and look at it as a hard learning process for me to get through it, learn it then A+ it and know what I didn't.
Sucks how no one can understand. I suck at explaining which doesn't help.
fuckin' A.