SPN!
OH MY GOD.
OH.
MY FUCKING.
GOD.
I CANNOT EVEN. BEGIN. TO EXPLAIN. THE EPIC TOWERING AMOUNTS OF HYSTERICAL SQUEE. THAT WERE ISSUING FROM ME LAST NIGHT.
OH.
MY.
FUCKING.
GOD.
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First of all, I got to see the episode at my sister’s house in Denver on the eve of WinCon, and I GOT TO SEE IT WITH lazy_daze!!!! I DO NOT EVEN KNOW, PEOPLE. BEST EVER. We were beating each other senseless with joy.
I knew which episode this was going to be, and therefore assumed it would be a majority-humour one, so I was a little disappointed that we wouldn’t be together for a heavy-hitting, emotionally satisfying episode.
BUT THEN IT WAS ONE. I AM JUST. I DON’T EVEN. OH MY GOD DID THAT JUST HAPPEN?
Besides the fact that Sam Winchester was the MOST BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING ALIVE and was in MEDICAL SCRUBS AND LATEX GLOVES AND HIS BIG GORGOEUS BULGING VEINY ARMS AND THE FACT THAT HE WAS BASICALLY FISTING SOMETHING AND HAD A SCALPEL OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD SCREAM DYING OH GOD. My insane medical kink is WORKING IN OVERDRIVE.
BUT MORE THAN THAT! He also actually STOOD UP FOR HIMSELF! He and Dean actually SPOKE TO EACH OTHER like rational adults, and Dean actually AGREED WITH SAM’S MANY AND VARIED VALID POINTS. That Dean has been treating Sam like a little kid, that he’s been bossing him around and blaming him where blame was not due and punishing him inappropriately and refusing to share the responsibility and duties of the job and not thinking of him as an equal. And Dean AGREED WITH HIM. He said the apocalypse WASN’T ENTIRELY SAM’S FAULT! They were BOTH key in the whole thing, that NO ONE THOUGHT KILLING LILITH WAS A BAD THING. God, it was the most VALIDATING THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED ON SPN. I have been screaming this stuff at the screen for like over a season and a half now, and FINALLY Dean is acknowledging it and Sam is owning it and fighting for it and telling Dean that hey, it’s not okay that Dean was treating him so badly that Sam had to run away with Ruby to feel like a worthwhile person. BUT! HE WAS STILL AMAZING AND FAIR! He didn't try to absolve himself of the blame he thought he deserved, he is still punishing himself and always will be, because he is SAM FUCKING WINCHESTER, and he is a SCHMOO. He made sure he told Dean that Dean didn't know about the first seal, that it wasn't his fault. GOD. FUCKING FUCK. I AM GOING TO EXPLODE RIGHT NOW, I AM SO FUCKING ECSTATIC.
GOD THIS EPISODE.
I AM STILL PEEING WITH JOY OVER IT. SAM SPEAKING SPANISH OH HOLY GOD *__________*! And let’s not even GO INTO the D/s ramifications of the fact that Sam was chafing under Dean’s lead. That he needs to be able to call the shots, too. UNF UNF UNF.
Also, Paris Hilton was actually sort of awesome. :D! And the House of Wax line!! I DIED AND SCREAMED. I loved it! GENIUS USE OF TOTAL CHEESE.
I don’t know, I feel like I’ve missed a billion things, but I am in the Business Center at WinCon and not thinking straight and still dying of amazingness. <3333! GOD I LOVE THIS. SAM GOT TO DRIVE. HE ALMOST GRABBED DEAN’S HAND. HE WORE A LITTLE GREY T-SHIRT AND ALMOST KILLED ME. DEAN HAS A PC. UNF UNF UNF YESSSSSSS.
I ACTUALLY ALMOST CRIED IN RE: SAM'S REVERENCE FOR GANDHI. OH MY GOD. D: SO AMAZING. SO FUCKING AMAZING. TEARS!!!!
GOD I AM SO INCOHERENT WITH GLEE OASGINWOTIGNDOIWNGOIWTNGSPINTWQG)DNJW)FEIDNG)QWITNSD)GISG ASGOINLKAFAOSFINLASFNSOGN FUCK I LOVE YOU, SUPERNATURAL.
I LOVE THE UNIVERSE TODAY.