I'm baaaaccccckkkk
Yes, I still live, I just haven't logged on in a while. A really long while. The last two years were a bit less than great for me. I started a new job, which was great at first, but it deteriorated very quickly. Within three months I started searching again. I reconnected with a old friend, and things progressed beyond friendship within a few months, we started dating, then talking about forever, and things were looking great. Then for three days, my calls were ignored, emails were answered then, bam! "This isn't going to work ever." Two days later,the week of Christmas, my love was "engaged" to someone else. Turns out they had been seeing each other for several months on the sly. That was 2008.
Last year, 2009, started out with me still licking my wounds and trying to heal emotionally. I finally got myself back together, and was starting to date again, when I was told my job would be ending May 1st, four weeks away. Gee, thanks. Of course, this prompted a frenzy of resume mailing, job post searching, and loads of stress. I applied for jobs both in and out of academia, near where I lived, and even as far away as the other side of the country. I was able to get out of my lease and moved back with my folks for six weeks. The last Tuesday in May I had an interview at a place I fell in love with instantly, a college 5 hours away, I was on pins and needles for two and a half weeks until I finally got the call that was a job offer, and could I start July 1? Yes! Having two weeks to find a place, move, unpack, and be settled enough for work was a challenge, but it happened. I ended up moving in the day before I started, and worked on boxes in the evenings and over the next several weekends.
That was six months ago. I am so much happier here: I actually like my job, my co-workers, my boss, my boss' boss, where I live (definitely rural, but with civilization only 15 miles away!), and everything about it. Professionally, this is better.
Spiritually, I'm in a better place too. Mostly because I'm happy and at peace. I am also able to focus and meditate, and be still and just listen.
Emotionally, I'm happier, more peaceful, I don't feel like every day is an emotional roller-coaster, I'm not depressed (between being dumped, finding out about the cheating, and losing my job, I fell into depression).
Physically, I'm eating healthier. When I'm stressed I don't eat, and when I'm sad I eat comfort food, and I wasn't able to convince myself that celery was comfort food, so my diet was rather erratic for most of the last two years, with periods of fasting and binging, definitely not healthy.
Romantically, well, there's nothing going on there. Yes, I've started dating again (both genders), but no one special, and a few who are definitely creeps.
Now, let's see what 2010 has in store for us!
Last year, 2009, started out with me still licking my wounds and trying to heal emotionally. I finally got myself back together, and was starting to date again, when I was told my job would be ending May 1st, four weeks away. Gee, thanks. Of course, this prompted a frenzy of resume mailing, job post searching, and loads of stress. I applied for jobs both in and out of academia, near where I lived, and even as far away as the other side of the country. I was able to get out of my lease and moved back with my folks for six weeks. The last Tuesday in May I had an interview at a place I fell in love with instantly, a college 5 hours away, I was on pins and needles for two and a half weeks until I finally got the call that was a job offer, and could I start July 1? Yes! Having two weeks to find a place, move, unpack, and be settled enough for work was a challenge, but it happened. I ended up moving in the day before I started, and worked on boxes in the evenings and over the next several weekends.
That was six months ago. I am so much happier here: I actually like my job, my co-workers, my boss, my boss' boss, where I live (definitely rural, but with civilization only 15 miles away!), and everything about it. Professionally, this is better.
Spiritually, I'm in a better place too. Mostly because I'm happy and at peace. I am also able to focus and meditate, and be still and just listen.
Emotionally, I'm happier, more peaceful, I don't feel like every day is an emotional roller-coaster, I'm not depressed (between being dumped, finding out about the cheating, and losing my job, I fell into depression).
Physically, I'm eating healthier. When I'm stressed I don't eat, and when I'm sad I eat comfort food, and I wasn't able to convince myself that celery was comfort food, so my diet was rather erratic for most of the last two years, with periods of fasting and binging, definitely not healthy.
Romantically, well, there's nothing going on there. Yes, I've started dating again (both genders), but no one special, and a few who are definitely creeps.
Now, let's see what 2010 has in store for us!