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im upset, so i thought i would put things down into words.
im unhappy mainly with myself. i proved extremely hypocritical this evening, and i also got rather down in the dumps when everything didnt go exactly my way. but thats pretty much my life story. im also angry because for some reason either i, or those boys always put me in a situation for me to prove myself a spazz when it comes to one thing: being left out.
boy department, is the usual. i hate myself in that situation. i feel... like if i want it so bad, ive had 16 years to acheive it, and yet still no such luck. not only do i feel like a failure for not being able to get a guy, i also feel like a dumbass for wanting it so much. it seems like such a big deal, yet at the same time it really isnt. im good at convicing myself things.
there is no break, in this endless repitition
constantly returning for more
you seem to always be on a mission
honestly, you really are a chore.
i doubt i could capture half a year in three words
but i do know how to capture your attention in no time
cars, on icy road, dont stay straight but they swerve
you cant follow rules, but desire to commit a crime.
why cant you just pick and chose one path?
why cant you simply devote to me?
being together is as easy as math...
but instead you decide to drive us straight into a tree.
congrajulations, were now officialy a wreck
you dragged me down with you
you twisted my neck
im hopless and alone, an empty shell to to fill
so that when you return, im ready to hear
what you have to offer, what dreams of mine you will kill
im unhappy mainly with myself. i proved extremely hypocritical this evening, and i also got rather down in the dumps when everything didnt go exactly my way. but thats pretty much my life story. im also angry because for some reason either i, or those boys always put me in a situation for me to prove myself a spazz when it comes to one thing: being left out.
boy department, is the usual. i hate myself in that situation. i feel... like if i want it so bad, ive had 16 years to acheive it, and yet still no such luck. not only do i feel like a failure for not being able to get a guy, i also feel like a dumbass for wanting it so much. it seems like such a big deal, yet at the same time it really isnt. im good at convicing myself things.
there is no break, in this endless repitition
constantly returning for more
you seem to always be on a mission
honestly, you really are a chore.
i doubt i could capture half a year in three words
but i do know how to capture your attention in no time
cars, on icy road, dont stay straight but they swerve
you cant follow rules, but desire to commit a crime.
why cant you just pick and chose one path?
why cant you simply devote to me?
being together is as easy as math...
but instead you decide to drive us straight into a tree.
congrajulations, were now officialy a wreck
you dragged me down with you
you twisted my neck
im hopless and alone, an empty shell to to fill
so that when you return, im ready to hear
what you have to offer, what dreams of mine you will kill