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ok, so ignore whatever i said earlier. i learned my lesson of the past few weeks.
we all just sat down for a family dinner. my dad spilled juice on his shirt and almost screamed us out of the house. then in the middle of dinner my mom just stood up and walked away and slammed the door on us. no one talked the rest of the dinner. my brother looked sad beyond words, and i tried to chat a bit, but there was no saving that moment.
i realise now, that i have spent the past year too concerned over money. money, having things, and lust. fulfilling my own needs and wants. my family has slipped away from me and who knows how we can get anything back?
my mom has a job now, and its fun bc she makes money and she buys me things a lot, but she is also barely ever home, she can be in bad moods often, and gets in fights with my dad. is it worth it? im thinking no.
money is a wretched thing. and the holidays are bringing me down as we near christ's birth.
i only hope tonight god was trying to get me to realise something, and that this wasnt a preview for the rest of the holidays...
we all just sat down for a family dinner. my dad spilled juice on his shirt and almost screamed us out of the house. then in the middle of dinner my mom just stood up and walked away and slammed the door on us. no one talked the rest of the dinner. my brother looked sad beyond words, and i tried to chat a bit, but there was no saving that moment.
i realise now, that i have spent the past year too concerned over money. money, having things, and lust. fulfilling my own needs and wants. my family has slipped away from me and who knows how we can get anything back?
my mom has a job now, and its fun bc she makes money and she buys me things a lot, but she is also barely ever home, she can be in bad moods often, and gets in fights with my dad. is it worth it? im thinking no.
money is a wretched thing. and the holidays are bringing me down as we near christ's birth.
i only hope tonight god was trying to get me to realise something, and that this wasnt a preview for the rest of the holidays...